Since my mother died, I've been pretty much alone, and 18 months on I'm still feeling very depressed, still getting flashbacks to her last day and I think about her all the time. But the worst days are Christmas and Birthdays (both mine and hers). Just spent another birthday (mine) with no-one but me knowing it's happened, again. I just keep thinking of all the times we celebrated together. I don't feel sorry for myself, that would be self-indulgent, but it is very depressing.
Does anyone have a similar situation, and if so how do you cope with these days? Indulge yourself, or is it best just to have 'another day' and not treat is as anything special?