I am 50 years old, (no that has nothing to do with why I am here) A little bit about me. Adopted at birth. Adoptive family decided I was the bigest mistake they had ever made by the time I was 2 years old (her words not mine). As soon as I was old enough I was sent to bording school. As soon as I started making friends I would be moved to another school (or so it seemed) so I stopped making friends. (Still don't make friends, it stops me from getting hurt even more) When i was 7years old She had a daughter of her own. It felt as if she was trying to replace me, the child she did not want anymore. I left home at 16. I have had good times, the births of my 2 children being the best of times. Both husbands were abusive.
To cut a long story sideways I am now working at a restaurant where I am the oldest member of staff. I live on my own in a single room in a HMO. Don't know anyone who lives here as well. At work i am ignored by the rest of the staff and the mamgment over look me all the time. (There was a day when I did not go into work because I thought I had the day off. When I went in the next day I was asked why I had not come in. No one thought to ring me to ask if I was OK. Just went to prove I am not wanted and not needed but they can not get rid of me because I have a perfect work record. (4 years) I can not leave because of my age, nobody wants to take people of my age on.
I have nobody to talk to, nobody to care for me. I know this is all about Me. I just need someone to talk to and to have someone to listen to me.
Can anyone help me please?