I have a new temporary job started last week, it's working for the council as an administrator, it's initially for 4 weeks. It's going ok just think I need to be more positive, if I don't understand something I darent always ask, they think I can do it as they leave me to it, I still suffer with anxiety bouts but I have had to force myself to get a job, I can't do with anyone being nasty to me. Hopefully I will be strong and be positive and overcome any anxiety I experience. I have been having relationship counselling but have had to stop due to me working, I do need to start it up again. I have found friends know what's going on in marriage but they want me to leave this marriage and start again because of the verbal abuse I have been getting, it's not so bad now but in the past it has been bad, it does have a knock on effect on who you are as a person and I think I have lost confidence both in professional and personal life which has caused me to be in and out of jobs. Now though I am determined. If things don't work out I can always try something else, it's like I can run away out of this job/relationship if I need to. Don't get me wrong I love my husband but he is controlling at times and he likes his meals on time but when I am at work he gets in before me and has to do the tea. He doesn't mind but he says it a woman's job. Mealtimes are stressful and it has had an effect on us. I am also caring for his dad in between who has had a hip op, I do it because there is no one else to help, my husband does help as well but I am there on hand. I just wish I felt in control of my life again.