Feel guilty and ashamed and like a failure

[Saddoglover]

I am trying so hard to keep distracted, but I keep giving in to the urges of wanting to self harm. I feel so pathetic and weak that I can't stop. I had stopped doing it as often, but seam to be doing it more often again just now. It's the only thing that helps sometimes

[sweetiepye]

Hi Sad, I'm a dog lover too although I don't have one right now. I usually get a dog from the shelter and I've never had a bad one. Do you live where you could have a pet of some sort? I think the love you get from animals is so healing.Just an idea. I don't know much about self harming ,but I imagine it comes from anger and some of the behaviors you mentioned in other posts makes me think you have anger issues. I'm guessing, having gone through anxiety myself. I always kept a journal to record my feelings every day and eventually I began to see patterns to what would set me off. Some times it would be situations, or people. Then knowing what bothered me I would prepare for it the next time or avoid it altogether if I couldn't do anything about it.Learning to manage your reactions is a real confidence builder. I know it's hard, and lonely, but you must push for your future. It won't always be like this. Pam

[patliputra]

Things are sad and needs immediate attention. It is very much advisable to talk to a psychiatrist as early as possible.

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Hi I know how you feel. It is really hard but not impossible to stop - I haven't since the 2nd April and now don't think about it the same way. Finding distractions can help but not always. I found going outside good or phoning the crisis team/ Samaritans for help and encouragement when I wanted to but felt overwhelmed. The other thing that helped is thinking ok I know I want to but I'm not going to for 5 mins, then carrying this on. Another powerful thing was when you want to imagine the people you love watching, then imagine you are watching them do it to themselves. I pictured my nieces so found this really upsetting.

I know you have the strength to stop just be determined but don't beat yourself up if you lapse. Also find an alternative coping strategy to take its place x

[victoriaahne]

Have you tried different ways to let the pain out. Drawing your pain or crushing ice cubes in the palm of your hand helps. It hurts a little, just enough to feel that pain that needs to be let out. My thoughts are with you. Stay in touch.