Feel a bit silly, or something..

[Lilmis]

I can't actually describe how I'm feeling, if I'm being honest.

I'm leaving my job tomorrow after only 2 months of chasing my dream it was not only the career I wanted but a bonus to be a part of such a great organisation.

However I've managed to secure a new job starting Monday again in my career I want, just the company I'll be working for is huge but Im not getting the same feeling as I did with my previous role, and that was a sense of pride.

I don't know what it is but I keep thinking will I get the same sense of pride as I did with my soon to be old job.

Also I keep thinking I'm dreaming and this new job won't last long, maybe because my new founded career is extremely hard to get into.

Also I keep having this feeling and thoughts right at the back of my head like subconsciously do I have the looks to be in this profession because when you think about the career I've taken you think skinny blonde etc.. but that's a stereotype of what people think, yet I'm thinking the same.

The was no one in my old work place like this, hence I felt comfortable being there and like I fitted in.

Maybe I'm over analysing things too much and should maybe stop doing that and "go with the flow" so to speak.

I said to my family (fiancé and dad) that I'd like to celebrate getting this position but the more I think about the situation the more I'm thinking I don't fancy celebrating it.

I'm sure I'll feel different on Monday.

I think I'm going to get a head start and read up about the job I'll be doing you know like payroll for dummies..

because never in my life have I ever done payroll I've done finance in the banking industry but never ever done a payslip or made sure people's tax codes are correct etc..

even I can't figure out my own payslip let alone do someone else's - god help this company

Yet I've managed to secure a job in this department.

Am I being silly for thinking this?

[spykey]

Hi Lilmis

Changing jobs is not easy at the best of times! But changing jobs so quickly, Wow!!

You obviously convinced the interviewer that you could do this job or you wouldn't have been offered the post!

You may not have done payroll before, but when you go into a new organisation you will find out that everyone & each company choose a particular way of doing it that suits their company! So there's no harm in saying when you are working with their staff, saying 'And which way does your company/you prefer to do that?' "What do you find the easiest way to do that?" Ask Lots of questions and make lots of notes during your first week, so you get a really good idea of how their payroll system works!

You are over-analysing things at the moment, probably due to your depression & what is unkwown in the new up and coming job! Give yourself a break, why shouldn't celebrate getting your new job, it's your dream job!! If you want to celebrate who can says it's the wrong thing to do?!?

You probably will feel different within the new company & it is a big organisation and may take some time to get used to the new company & a job you have never done before!! Please give yourself time to learn & settle in to You New job!

Many people go through different emotions whilst going through different types of jobs & roles in their lives and most of them are leaning these jobs as they go!! This is normal, and the feelings you are having are normal!

Good Luck in Your New Job!

Take Care. Warm Wishes & Blessings spykey🤗

[Lilmis in reply to spykey]

Thanks you spykey,

Well you say I've convinced the organisation in a interview, but I've not had a interview for this new job, I went though a agency and the organisation took one look at my cv and said send her in.

But yeah I'm going to ask loads of questions and try my damn hardest to get the job quickly because I'm convinced the reason my soon to be old job is becoming old is due to the fact I kept asking questions and it took me ages to get my head around it.

I don't want this to end in heartache as much as I'm not feeling the excitement I'm going to do everything I can to get this job under my belt as soon as I possibly can.

I will go to the pub tonight it may feel different as I leave the force.

And I will try and stop over analysing and try and look to the future who knows this new company maybe a start to many good things in life.

I suppose looking on the bright side of things if it doesn't work out I'll have at least 5-6 months payroll experience something I'll have never had if it wasn't for this company.

I'll see how I feel only I had in my badge at the end of today.

[Hidden]

The company obviously believe you are suitable for the job otherwise they wouldn't of given you the position, I think it's natural to feel nervous and anxious when starting on a new venture, but don't beat yourself up so much, you've been given this job because your new employer believes you can do it, instead of doubting yourself, give yourself a pat on the back, be proud of yourself for landing yourself the job, anything you don't know you can learn as you work, don't worry, oh and well done xxx

[sweetiepye]

Hello and welcome although I realize you've posted before. I am totally confused after reading your other posts. Were you asked to leave the dream job or was it your choice? I understand being proud to work for a well known company, but isn't it others who have earned that pride? Working at the new job any pride in work will be your own. That should count for something.Should I assume you are a tall blonde? Not one legal profession comes to mind except for something in media, but you said payroll and you don't need to be tall or blonde for that.You probably don't need to worry about figuring things out won't they be computerized at the new place? I wish you every success , and let us know how you get on. Pam

[Lilmis in reply to sweetiepye]

Hi sweetie pye,

Yes I was kicked out, well the way it's gone is I got the job in hr my chosen career and I was told it would be 3 months on going, however they've recruited for my position in the mean time now the new girl who's taking my job is starting on Monday so I took it upon myself to leave the organisation as I didn't want to be there when she was starting because well I'd feel uncomfortable.

So I joined a agency and they've sent my cv to this other company and I've managed to get the job without a interview I just turn up Monday morning to start.

The pride in my current role I think is because it's the police force and made me feel proud going in each day.

I'm not tall and blonde far from that, but then again not everyone in the force is, I'm just hoping the isn't many tall blonde in this new company..

Yeah they will have computers but understanding the logic behind how to do payroll I seem to think is a technique and that's what I need to do get my head around that, I just need to hit the ground running so to speak once I step through those doors, because I don't want to let another opportunity slip through my hands.

But lately I've been feeling so unlucky I hope this is a turn in the right direction and they don't let me go after the 6 months they've signed me up for.

[Celtic27]

Hi there I don't think you are silly at all changing jobs can throw you a bit to start try and ignore the" what ifs" and commit to try your new job you maybe being unfair on your self you may get on better than you think ! At least give your self a chance good luck david

[Little-nelly]

Hi,

First off, you can be proud, your cv was obviously good and shows you are suitable and capable of working in your new role. As for payroll, let me give you some reassurance about that. I am 56 and had no experience in anything to do with payroll other than signing people's time sheets. I then left my career of 30 years to work for my husband who is an accountant. Within 2 months I was running a payroll for him. The secret is,the software does it for you. Believe me, if I can do it so can you! As long as you can enter the data into the programme- all of which is supplied to you- then you can complete payroll. The most complicated part is entering data for a new starter or a leaver. In both cases it is just a case of following a set procedure which the software will talk you through, I've used two different types of payroll software and both come with good help sections too.

Honestly don't worry, you'll realise very quickly that you can do this and then you'll be adding more relevant experience to your cv!

Oh and incidentally, I'm not tall and blonde either, short, round, blonde with ever increasing grey!

[Lilmis in reply to Little-nelly]

Thank you little-nelly, that is a huge help.

I feel a lot better now that I've been to see the agency and they've talked me through why I was selected without a interview.

I feel that I'm going to enjoy this place and now I don't fancy going back to my old job for one last day haha. But best had need the reference.

I'm hoping they will allow me to leave early even if I'm going in late.

But I've been reassured that the new company I'm going to isn't as large as my soon to be old one and plus it's in the private sector so it's probably going to be a lot easier to get in with them compared to a public sector where funding is stretched.

But again thank you for that I needed to hear that it's not so hard