Thought but no actions I have to much self love

[NicoleLamar]

Today I was standing at the bus stop waiting for the bus and I just started crying thinking of you know all the hurt and pain and I watch the cars go by and every car with that one by just wanted to jump in front of it I don't know what in my mind made me think to jump in front of these two cars but every time one went past I saw myself damn thing in front of one of them and then it while I was walking to my house inside glass on the floor and it's not myself picking it up and stabbing myself and then and I just cried hysterically standing at the bus stop you know all the pain and heartbreak good stuff that I've been through I just hard