I.am going to to c a health professional soon I have suffered with depression for years.But resenly am getting worse I go through mood swings don't eat for days I did go under 7 stone once I was in hostpital for weeks.I binge drink and taken overdoses.Am paranoid I could gone on.Do wish my family could understand,am pushing them away cause they make it worse.Am a recluse things that people have said or done my hole life actually go round and round in my head.I do talk to myself trying to find out reasons for thing that I have gone through.Why can I not just for the my remaining life just be normal and Sane like others.