I don't really know how to start. I have dealt with 'depression' many times before, however i have always dealt with this alone and never spoken out or admitted it to anyone. I am now 19 weeks pregnant with my first child, I've been out of work most of my pregnancy so far because of Hyperemesis. While being out of work and being in and out of hospital i tried my hardest to stay positive and focused. It worked for a while, then when i returned to work feeling well and okay i started feeling down and tired and i knew something was not right. I have been off work again and i have finally confided in my partner and my mum and told them everything. I am feeling down and very low, I don't want to leave my house or go back to work, i just can't do it. I feel worthless and i keep overthinking everything possible, i'm not sleeping during the night and then when i do sleep in the day i'm sleeping for 12+ hours and still feeling drained and shattered. I keep crying and i don't know how to get past it. I just want to be the best mother i can be but i feel like i am failing. I have booked in to see a doctor this Saturday but i don't know how to speak out loud to someone and explain how i feel as i feel like no one understands.
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