My birthday is coming up and i am dreading it,i hate it,i hate the attention,i hate having to "pretend" that i am greatful for someone saying happy birthday(I am not happy it's my birthday,there is nothing happy about it,just don't say it,that's what i really think anyway) ,i turn the reminder's off facebook etc so i try to hide the fact that it's my birthday,but of course there is always one.
And it just bug's the hell out of me,honestly i hate my birthday,i hate being reminded that i am getting old,but mainly i just hate the attention,i have told people time and time again,it's just another day.
But it fall's on def ears,if i could just disappear for that day,it would be great,but that's wishful thinking. Glad to get that off my chest :).
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I always felt the same ,and even when young was glad my birthday was in the school holidays so i did n't get as much attention. Its a mixed feeling as many of the birthday wishes feel false and just a standard thing to be said.
However there is a positive side in that some ,those who really care about you and feel close to you are celebrating the day that you came into the world, even if they are not consciously thinking that.
I'm a cynic and a bit of an old curmudgeon but try not to begrudge anyone a cause for celebration. At heart I agree with you but I also feel we owe others and ourselves to do and say nothing to dampen anyone's spirits,
Yeah it's not a case of i want my parent's to think i am ungreatful to them and all that,it's just that my way of thinking is different to their's and that to me the only emotion i have from a "birthday" is that of i hate the attention i hate someone saying happy birthday to me i just want it to be treated like any other day which it is really.
And it will be the same for when i die,i do not want a Funeral where people all gather dressed in black,saying this that and the other,i do not want a gravestone,either.
When i die,i don't want to be cremated in some sad big oven,nope,just put my body on a pile of log's leave me burn,gather the ashes and just let them go,there need not be a place of stone for someone to remember me by,once i am gone,there really is just no need(how i feel personally) for a stone with dob and dod.
I came i saw i died,next.(actually maybe that would be a good line of text to put onto a gravestone ha) but no really it's just difficult to explain.
Time does not exist, neither does age. Age is an illusion of the mind. Because we are taught to believe it. We must unlearn things sometimes. I stopped believing in age a while ago. I believe the more this occurs, the more people will stop the "aging process" since the mind will not be telling the body to age. Our bodies are made and built to sustain us, we are not suppose to age, that is why our cells rejuvenate each and every day right before our eyes and give us brand new skin, brand new everything everyday. I stopped believing in age when I had been around the sun 30 times, that's what I like to call it. I have now been around the sun 31 times. and one day I'll just come up with another way to phrase it, because I can. We create our own realities. It's a wonderful magical thing when we realize how powerful we actually are 😊Hope you think about this. You don't Birthday. That's just. Tradition that was created by humans, and guess what, you don't have to participate in that😌Hope you have a great day 😊
That's the thing, we don't get old. We're not even suppose to age. Aging will become a thing of the past before we know it. If we create it In our minds, it projects into our reality. "Getting old" is easy for people because they feel it everyday, think KT everyday, speak it everyday. Imagine what would happen if we change this exact feeling and thought to being and staying young instead, believe it or not, our bodies have no choice but to listen to us, and it would happen.
The way i see it is that we get old for a reason,to die,just like after many years tree's will fall(be it by not man's hand) but through the aging process and the tree eventually rotting away.
The body is like this,after many years,if it's not taken by man's hand then the body will rot away,a part of me think's that without death would you really apperciate life?
It is a cruel thing to witness,and it's a path i would rather face my self rather then to continue to witness ,but just like a birth,something that everyone has seen,be it in real life or on video,we also have to witness how it end's.
If we were to stay forever young,then we would then kill the planet,(granted we have been slowly doing that for a while with all the nukes,and everything else that we as a race create).
Everything that live's,breath's has a life,and what has a life,can be taken in an instant,nothing will last forever,not even this world.
A birthday is just a reminder that you are one stepping stone closer to the finish line,if no unforeseen circumstances happen that is.
Basically as with everything,after something has been used for so long it becomes worn,fragile,and week,this can be seen as anything with a pulse or an object,everything has an expiry date, even technology,becomes dated,and eventually broken.
Personally i could not think of a greater hell then living forever.
29 years old,to be honest i felt i was getting ancient when i turned 18,i never planned that far ahead in life,always thought i would die young(subconsciously hoped it too)
Yeah it is frustrating especially when you have been repeating your self about not wanting a fuss over so many years.
People ask what are you doing for your birthday and it's like i want peace and quiet,that's all i want,to be left alone,without having a happy birthday thrown my way just leave it be.
But nope,never case,it's always a case of the same ol same ol,why don't you go out for a drink blah blah blah.
People just need to let it drop.
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