I have suffered depression since I was 15, taken various tablets and seen various people. In some ways I am a stronger person just I wish I could keep awake. My best place to be is in my bed. I work full time but can't wait to get home to have my snooze. If it's a weekend or holiday I can stay there all day then hate myself for it. I do only the things I really have to do. I live on my own and although I don't mind it things have got worse since then as I can do as I please. My job doesn't help as I hate my boss so much he has destroyed all my confidence (not that I had a lot in the first place). I just want to be like everyone else, do things when you want instead of being can't be bothered.