I have spent a very short while reading some posts in the forum and I feel almost selfish and self centred seeking help and advice from you guys as I dont think I have half as many struggles as most. Over the last ten years I have been (both medically and self aknowledged) suffering from depression. I feel absolutely brilliant some weeks/months and utterly worthless the next. I have only seen my doctor about it twice before until now but unsure (within the UK) what the right path to go down is. I am taking the tablets prescribed by the doc but unsure whether to pursue to avenue of one to one psychiatric consultation. To be honest my biggest fear is being told I'm going about everything the wrong way and its all my fault, which it probably is. I definitely need to make a positive change in myself as its affecting my relationship with my children and also having a negative affect on my marriage. Since Ive started off being nice and honest I'll continue that. One major factor I reckon that definitely isn't helping at the moment is my alcohol consumption which has increased dramatically over the last 6 months, although without it I cant sleep. So without dragging up anymore of my nonsense I'm asking you guys where you think I should be aiming for. I'm usually an exceptionally private person but reading everyone elses posts made me feel comfortable for the first time in a very long time about being open and honest about how I truly feel. I want to be better for not only my kids and my wife but for me, no one should have to feel this way!