Starting to feel better!

Depression is a very odd thing. It's funny how you don't allow yourself to accept that there is a problem. If you have a sore leg, or a sore throat, you visit the doctor and the problem is generally fixable and there is a hopeful outcome. With depression, I tended to ignore a lot of, what are now, blatantly obvious symptoms. I lost over two stone, never slept and isolated myself from nearly all of my friends, except two, whom I would only ever see in order to smoke weed. Life feels like it is spiralling out of control and plummeting into a frightening pit of despair, in which there is no way out. I felt like I was trapped in my mind and it wasnt a good place. Constant feelings of isolation and loneliness were all consuming. It took me a while to realise I was hurting myself and the people closest to me felt like they were constantly walking on egg shells. The doctor put me on 20mg of citalopram, arranged counselling for me and put me in contact with lifeline and I am slowly starting to feel like my old self again. I'm not 100% better and I dont think I will be for a while. But it's a start.

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  • Oh good. Feeling depression begin to lift is great. I sometimes don't realize how depressed I was until it's lifted and the comparison is so stark.

  • Well done for seeking help and treatment. The only way is up.

    With a physical problem there isn't an issue proving it. With depression it is invisible and much harder to spot and talk about. x

  • Every journey has a start and you have made yours ... well done you x

  • Well done !!

    Keep going to lifeline for as long as possible, it will help you


  • That's good news and a good positive start. its a gradual phase to try and come out of depression but slowly does it and you will look back and realize it was all worth it.

    keep it up.

  • Nice to see a positive post as we all need to see things which can give us hope for the future. It's great that your depression is lifting a bit and that you are starting to feel like your old self again. Fingers crossed things continue to get better for you X

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