Everyday is a struggle for me, I just want to feel normal

[Ash_15]

So I have been having these issues for a while now, going on about 7 years with the past 3 years getting increasingly worse. I’m sure it has something to do with anxiety but I know my body or brain has to have something else wrong to be having all these random crazy problems being only 23 years old. I’ve had traumatic experiences with my family, friends, and relationships starting at 16 yo. I was able to cope and deal with it but now it’s just making me feel crazy or like there is seriously something wrong with me. I get left sided chest pain every day and it becomes difficult to breathe, like I have to stretch my arms, chest and back constantly with no relief, and feel like I am having to think about breathing deep and slow to be able to breathe at all. I get extremely lightheaded to where I feel I am going to pass out, seeing black spots that turn into complete blackness within 2 minutes of standing up to get something out the kitchen. The lateral side on both of my thighs is So sore to the touch, feeling like major bone bruises or something. My chest has also began feeling sore to the touch. My mind is racing constantly about things that literally do not matter, I can’t maintain eye contact while speaking, I lose my train of though mid sentence, and feel EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE while talking to people. I went from 140 lbs to 104 within 5 months because I felt so nauseous, and now have gained back up to 120 in 4 months. I have digestive problems. Headaches that seem more like migraines. Tunnel vision. Memory loss, always tired, can never get enough sleep, days I don’t have work I wil literally stay asleep in bed ALL day long. And I’ll just stop there because I know I sound crazy? I just have no clue what is going on with my mind and body and I am too scared to go to a doctor because of feeling like they won’t take me seriously or think I’m making it up. But y’all I swear i experience all of these symptoms everyday of my life. If anyone has any knowledge of what could be wrong PLEASE help! I know this is a super long post, and I appreciate you if you actually read it !! I just really need help

[lillyofthevalley37]

You could post this in the Fibromyalgia Action UK community here on HU , it sounds to me a little bit like fibromyalgia, but I am no doctor, there are some very nice people on there who will give you advice

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Ash_15 and welcome to this supportive community.

You seem to be in a very difficult place trying to deal with both physical and emotional problems. I know you say that you are scared to go to a doctor but please be reassured that they will take you seriously and won't think that you are making anything up.

You mention that you have had traumatic experiences in the past. Have you ever had the chance to talk these through with a health professional?

It is a good first step that you are talking to us here.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on.

MAS Nurse & Moderator

[Ash_15 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thanks for replying to my post! I haven’t ever talked to a professional or anyone really about the trauma as I’ve always tried to just tell myself I’m fine and keep it together to help with supporting my family and friends. It would cause a lot of stress on my mom if I went to talk with a professional..

[23hawthorns]

Hi. I’ve been experiencing literally everything you described.

I’ve been battling with my head for years. Mine started when I had to watch my best friend die and see and bury my godson after he hung himself all within a week. telling myself to pull myself together and being strong for everyone else I’ve been using anything from drugs to fizzy drinks to pick myself up! Today I finally melted and managed to get to the doctor. I was with her for around 45 mins!

I was terrified off speaking to the doctor as I knew from this point, anything I used to pick myself up would be impossible to get hold of again.

I can promise you if you get the right doctor they will help you.

Please don’t make yourself suffer you are not alone and certainly not crazy- the help is out there but you have to make the first step in finding it. You don’t have to live like this and you deserve better.

It’s going to be a long road for me but I realise I have to put the work in myself and I will make myself happy again.

Sorry for rambling I’m new and feeling a bit proud for starting my journey 😊

Good luck to you x

[Kitten58]

I recently learned that I have PTSD. You're post looks like one of my doctor visits pet to my finding out. I had several episodes of heart attack like symptoms. I have several ultra sounds of my heart to prove to my children I have one. I did actually pass out once when I stood up once. I am much better now thanks to EMDR therapy. Eye Moment Desensitization and reprocessing. My advice would be to sell help. Don't wait until our almost 60. Mt symptoms started in 7 th our 8 th grade.