Lately, I never want to do it. It sounds like a chore. BUT...my friend texted me today and invited me to our mutual friend's music show and I went. My internal reaction to the text was, "Ugh. I wish she wouldn't have invited me because I don't want to have to go out and act "on" "
But I went. And guess what?! I'm so glad I did. I decided I wasn't going to act like anything other than how I felt, because showing up in itself was enough work. Turns out my friends were glad to see me, and I was glad to see them. I even laughed quite a few times.
So, yeah, feeling more hopeful at least. And I'm so glad I ignored my desire to stay home and just watch Netflix.