I have posted here before about how I've felt, and I have been to two doctors who have been quite unhelpful, I seem to have many of the symptoms and signs of depression, especially the emotional ones. But both doctors I have been too are only listening to my physical signs and symptoms and are trying to push it off as anaemia and iron deficiencies, when that could be a possibility but surely anaemia doesn't make you feel suicidal? I think they aren't listening to me because I mention that I don't cry, I just get very down yet empty and question why am I even here? I have just turned 18 and said I cannot have medication, just counselling but they are making me sort out my own counselling? I am young and have had quite a bad year but this feeling has been stuck with me for 2 years almost now and no one is listening to me, I've tried diet changes, exercising, trying to force myself to leave the house more and nothing is working. Please help, I don't know who to turn to or where to go?