Help me can't go on like this any longer

[maryp17]

Someone please help me I feel down and upset been like this for over 2 years have made a lot of mistakes in my life tried to get help but feel alone and have given up on hope only females please and I need someone to talk to me and feel like not eating I cry myself to sleep and my real mum has died I miss her

[Stilltrying_]

I have messaged this person and she started a conversation with me but has not replied to my latest message (over half an hour ago) yet. I hope the reason is that other people are messaging her too and that is the reason why she hasn't replied. I have just sent her link for Samaritans and Childline as well.

I advised her to post up on here as well as more people could reply so please do if you have any help to offer. Thanks.

Gemmalouise

[maryp17 in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you for helping me I'm sorry I could not reply there is a reason

[cld6]

Hi,

Is there anything we could do to help? I'm happy to listen if there's anything you need to speak about, as I know that being heard often helps me to feel better. Is there anything in particular tonight making you feel this way, or is it just something that's come about? Like Gemmalouise suggested, the Samaritans can be a great place to turn to if you need someone caring to listen. I personally have used their text service before (07725909090) as I find it difficult talking on the phone, perhaps either of these could help?

Even though you don't feel like it, please do try to eat something. If you don't eat you'll start to feel quite week and it could make you feel even worse.

I know this won't be any real consolation, but just know that it's okay to have moments like this where you're not okay

Clare

[maryp17 in reply to cld6]

Can u message me please so I can't talk to you

[maryp17 in reply to maryp17]

So I can I mean

[cld6 in reply to maryp17]

Of course

[maryp17 in reply to cld6]

Message me plz

[gardengnome]

BIG HUGS -----, the weekends are hard when there is so much time to sit and think. Can you make a plan to get through next weekend, arrange to go out with a school mate, just anything to distract you really. I can imagine how sad you must feel without your mum, can school or college refer you to grief counselling, the g.p, may too, though nhs waiting lists can be quite long. As the wait can be long, i really would start asking for help now, esp if you think you are getting lower and lower. It is times like these that i wish i were religious, then at least i could believe in angels.....However i can say that your mum would want you to live your life, as fully as you can, and that starts with taking care of your self hunney. ,

A friend of mine uses face book to sort of talk to her dad who passed away a few years ago, it is a way of communicating with him, and of getting her feelings out. . Your mum would not want you to be neglecting yourself, do what ever you can to make whatever part of your mum is around in any kind of spirit form happy and proud......Love A.

[maryp17 in reply to gardengnome]

I still have my adopted mum and no I have nothing planned for next weekend apart from sitting down and thinking about all the bad things I have done and I feel alone and scared I find it hard to get my words out just want a hug and someone to tell me things will be OK and to get things of my chest I feel locked up in a black whole with no one around I can't sleep don't eat propley

[gardengnome in reply to maryp17]

we've all done silly things we regret, and will again.all our lives. Sometimes we can make up for it, sometimes all we can do is to forgive ourselves. But there are limits to how much we should punish ourselves for our past mistakes. Sometimes there are practical things we can do, like adults who go back to uni, after quitting school early.. It is a long time since i have been a teenager, hope you have also found some teen self-help sites to chat on too, though be careful, because sometimes other people talking about their worries can be quite triggering if you are feeling delicate.... And i really do mean it about leading the life that your mother would wish for you, I want to hand you a great big hankie and say ''don't cry'' so much.

[maryp17 in reply to gardengnome]

I gone past the limit of punishing myself I will never forgive myself

[Stilltrying_]

She has replied now but I have told her I have to go now which I feel bad about but there is only limited amount I can do.

I have passed on the number to text that you gave and thanks for your offer of being there for her as well.

I hope you will be ok Maryp. x

[maryp17 in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thanks can I message you tomorrow

[Stilltrying_]

Yes, we will all do what we can x Try and talk to someone who knows you already as well, someone that you trust if there is anyone.

Let me/ us know how you are going on x

[maryp17 in reply to Stilltrying_]

There is no one I trust I'm scared its not that easy when you have a mum who gets angry and tells u to go die and u get scared of her and I will let u know what goes on