Oh dear..feeling really emotional this evening..

[Adorable1]

I should be excited, and happy, but I'm tearful and sad. how can that be .....

[Hidden]

It is part of a brain injury where some times the emotions get all mixed up. I read somewhere on this site about what saying. I also know what you are going through as have been there a few times when have things and life is good thinking about it. But feel not so good. I am still working on finding a balance, when found will share.

[Adorable1 in reply to Hidden]

That's really kind of you thank you I've been doing well, but seem to be having an emotional time tonight.

I'm sorry to hear that you have experienced the same.

I suffer with anxiety and depression, have not had a head injury so don't know much about that. I think the time of year can make us a little anxious and sometimes sad and the way we feel can make us lonely as family or those close don't always understand and their expectations can be overwhelming. I guess I feel they expect me to be the life and soul like I used to, but somehow I'm not quite there yet

Thank you for responding to the post. Sometimes it really helps just to write it down and thank you for offering to share if you find the balance.

[Jamie186]

Hi Adorable1 what's happened ? I'm sure you know better than me depression makes your moods swing like a pendulum Try and think if anything's upset you if not, hopefully it's something temporary and it will be better in the morning.

love

Jamie

[Adorable1 in reply to Jamie186]

Hiya,

Think it's a mixture of things, going on a long trip overseas tomorrow, I think just the pressure to be happy, is making me sad, does that sound mad ???

I feel guilty I'm lucky to be making the trip to see loved ones,

And I'm tearful, how awful....I bet after a good cry I will be fine

Thank you so much for asking

Sue x

[Jamie186 in reply to Adorable1]

Hiya Adorable1 Just because your flying with Ryanair don't worry their safety record is not too bad.

I wish I was going with you, Remember every one gets stressed before flying and meeting family again. You'll be fine.

My thoughts go with you

Jamie

[Adorable1 in reply to Jamie186]

Haha that made me laugh! Thank you.

People on here are amazing and your no exception Jamie

[gardengnome in reply to Adorable1]

why do we beat ourselves up for feeling the way that we do?

I think i do that so often, starting by just feeling bad, and then feeling even more rubbish about feeling rubbish, bit of a loop really.

Best wishes for you family trip. Take it as it comes, enjoy what there is to enjoy and try to keep expectations on yourself tightly packed away untouched at the bottom of your suitcase.

Travel safely. I'm sure you have set a dozen alarm clocks and are allowing yourself plenty of time for travel, at least the weather will have calmed down by then, so hopefully the journey will go ok. night night

[Adorable1 in reply to gardengnome]

Thank you so much

Night night x

[Photogeek]

Hi Sue sorry to hear that you are feeling sad. Now you have been doing great, you

Have been through a lot of changes including moving. Xmas is a tiring time as

Well and I think we rush around and get tired because of the emotional thing.

I can relate to you feeling like that , at Xmas any little or big problems or perceived

Lack In Our lives tend to be magnified at Xmas. Culturally it's a time of family happily

Doing stuff and merriment with loving people all around, whereas in reality our lives

Don't or cannot measure up to that high bar.

Sometimes a little cry does us good it means we have feelings and are alive

Not like a drugged up zombie. So Sue don't panic and don't beat yourself up,

Admit your not dancing around the place and go with your feelings. Then phone someone

Or even make a few plans for new year. We cannot feel good 100% of the time. When

We suffer from Depression we tend to panic when we feel vulnerable like this

I'm here if you need a chat and remember how far you have come.

Love n hugs and hope some of this helps you.

Hannah

[Adorable1 in reply to Photogeek]

Aw Hannah thank you.

I think I've got a bit overwhelmed, I'm off on a 2 week trip overseas tomorrow to see loved ones, it's so lovely and I should be so happy.

I suddenly felt a bit anxious and very emotional. I travel alone so I guess a bit of nerves maybe, and just worried about not being the person they once new I know I'm a better person now, but not quite the life and soul I was

Thank you for your reply, it really helps, was feeling lonely and now beginning to feel a lot better just writing it down and replying

Sue xxxx

[Adorable1 in reply to Adorable1]

I guess I also dread the goodbyes, it's real sad when I leave everyone crying.....no good at goodbyes, don't know when I will see them again.....I've not even got there yet and I'm thinking of goodbyes haha I know , silly xxx

[Photogeek in reply to Adorable1]

Sue if it's any help I would be the same the excitement can

Cause stress and we think " oh will I be ok and I,am all alone. I travel to Dubai to visit a friend and sometimes when I am at the airport I get overwhelmed, and I know if I was with someone or

A partner I would not feel like that.

I'm glad you fell a bit better now, it's great when there is someone

Who can relate to us. Please don't worry about not being the

Person you are. No you are a lovely lady who is a much more interesting and self directed than the old Sue. Everyone changes

Through life and they will love you and think you are great

Write down these things on a post it when you travel

Sue is strong and capable, she is important and she accepts herself today as she is.

Make a nice cuppa for yourself.

Luv n hugs

Hannah. Xx

[Adorable1 in reply to Photogeek]

Thank you Hannah, it's good to know you understand.

I went last year and in the march when I got back had a breakdown, had to give up work ..had one of those awful times we all talk about, I guess in a strange way it's reminding me how ill I have been....and just how this year has been....it's been a struggle, exhausting, and I've fought hard and achieved a lot, I guess I may be sub consciously reflecting...

Got myself a coffee, your kind words made me cry, and I needed that, thank you not been like this in a while

Xxxxxxx

[Photogeek in reply to Adorable1]

Ah Sue I think it's very natural you would be

Emotional, there is nothing wrong with you at all, it's just our memories tend always to be centred around our perceived failures or not coping We don't remember the good parts. Depression is a trickster I think.

Writing it down takes the fear away. Just go with the flow and take each day by day.

Hugs

Hannah. And enjoy every moment.

[Adorable1 in reply to Photogeek]

Thank you Hannah...

You have really helped

Really appreciate xx

[Jamie186 in reply to Photogeek]

Hi Hannah, How dare you go anywhere on your own, when I,m sitting in this cell, next time give me a bell, I'll apply for short term release and we will go together, I'll pay.

Jamie

[Hidden]

Hello

I am the same Christmas really sits hard with me, we live on the Scottish Border and it is always worse at New Year for us as now I have alienated myself from family and they do not know where we are . Thank God, although all seems very final

This time of the year always seems to get a negative vibe, personally I think it is just the way it has been for the last thirty years

Enjoy that holiday, can I come??.

Keep a hold

BOB

[Adorable1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Bob,

and thanks for sharing how it feels for you

[Gambit62]

Try not to worry about the range of emotions - all sound perfectly normal to me given the circumstances. The tears may not all be about sadness as it may be because you are very much in your heart at the moment ... but your brain may be interpreting them as sadness and trying to find things to pin the sadness on - hence racing ahead to the goodbyes.

Really hope that you have a good time

[Adorable1 in reply to Gambit62]

Makes sense that does thank you

Sue x

[Hidden in reply to Adorable1]

What a great Oprah quote. I can so relate to that and your post. Christmas definitely has it's highs and low points. I sometimes wish I could erase loneliness. I hope whatever you do Adorable1 there are some happy moments.

[Adorable1 in reply to Hidden]

Yes love that quote and thank you Viktor....

Erasing loneliness sounds good. Never truer words than 'you can feel lonely even surrounded by people' I think because quite a few don't understand it can be a lonely place even when there are people around.

It's a new year lets hope it brings lots of nice things for us all.

Sue x

[Hidden in reply to Adorable1]

I hope 2014 allows us all to beat depression and eradicate loneliness and isolation.

[Adorable1]

thanks Bev, I guess I will be ok once checked in, in the morning...weather not good right now so that don't help...but hopefully by the time I fly mid morning the storm will have passed xx

[Suzie40]

I always find that the more I dread something, the more I end up enjoying it. When I'm really excited, it ends up an anti - climax. I have a funny feeling you're going to have a fabulous time on your trip and I can't wait to hear about it! Maybe next time a travelling partner might be the solution - I wouldnt be at all offended if you were to buy me a ticket!

[Photogeek]

Hi Jamie I am in bits. I have invited a friend over to my place tomorrow so I have

Been cooking and cleaning up my apartment to have it lovely for tomorrow.i just sat

Down -10 mins ago . I got a chest infection so antbios too, ah well at least I'm alive

Still. Glad to have met you here and I hope your Xmas goes very well and your family

All are happy and healthy, I get no support from my family which does hurt me, but

I try not to dwell on it. I know the other Sue who goes Into childhood and the past would probably have an answer why my family do t support me. Ok my dear.

I'm off to get a cuppa and talk to you over the Xmas . Hope Sue got off ok, she is a pet.

Giggles and hugs

Hannah