is it serious can someone talk to me please ??

[absxx]

hi i am a girl 16 have been have suicdal rhoughts recently have nearly killed myself 3 times no one would care if i died i need someone to talk too my age

please talk to me on kik

[chellshock]

Hello, is there a family member or your gp you could talk to?

[Hidden]

Hello

You say you want to commit suicide, why?

Sadly, I tried several years ago and failed.

One thing you need to understand it is not the person who dies is the main sufferer, it is the family and friends who you leave behind are those who will really suffer the actions that you have instigated.

Families feel anger,sadness , guilt, and all other feeling to long to enter here

Many families feel when someone close attempts suicide and fails, they feel hurt that the person has not asked for help, On the negative side they will possibly never trust you again, they feel that you could be blackmailing them, doing it for attention or any selfish reason that may come to mind

When you manage suicide the the feelings are as above and attenuated, the family actually feels confused, sad and guilty as they will all wonder why???.

These feelings will last until it is their turn for the Grim Reaper.

When you attempt suicide many feelings can go through your head, one is fear !!, You begin to think why have I done this, will it be painful, etc etc. These feelings can be extensive.

When a suicide attempt is taken into hospital, it is generally the A and E, sadly it is not an uncommon act. although the treatments are very heroic, the staff will fight the whole way too save you.

It can be very messy and painful, some they bring back, some they do not and the final group will die in a further three days when the internal organs begin to fail, Remember it you bleed out it can be very messy so you will need to realize that your family members may want to see the remains before the undertaker picks up your remains.

Sorry this is what happens I tried now several years ago, I was rushed into hospital, and next day met the Emergency CPNs who ask all the relevant questions, then you are passed down the line so they can find out why?? you will be sick of that word after a good period of time

Now I have been discharged and I used to be a volunteer in Mental Health.Until I moved away.

Although now I would not do it again, my Wife now orders my prescriptions sorts out daily doses, never gives me more tablets that last more than two days, why you may ask, I will tell you

Because She loves me, and on the other side SHE WILL NEVER NOW TRUST ME., SHE FEELS GUILTY.

Now suicide is a thing we never joke about, and it will alter your life and others so radically personally I would never do it again.

I do not know what your problems are that make you consider suicide, do you want to effect all those people you love in such a radical way

If you need a chat about this there is always someone here that will listen. I am always around for a chat

Please sit and think, the Samaratins are always their for a more in depth chat

All the best

BOB

[absxx in reply to Hidden]

thank you i am so sorry to hear about your story

i was born as an accident and i am nt wanted around the house i have a couple of friends but not tht close i feel alone. all the people i care about have left me i dont think i have the guts to acctually kill myslef i was to scared previously but that really helped

thanks i think i understand where ur cmong from

[Hidden in reply to absxx]

Hello BOB here

If you need to talk I am here for you, no-one is beyond help.

One thing that you could do is call the NHS Emergency line if things become so bad, they will help you.

A GP appointment of up to three sessions together may be a good idea, so they can look and give assistance in countering your negative feelings

My family was very much like what you have suffered from, now I never see them, it is no great loss

There is a life with/after depression, I promise

All the best

BOB

[Gambit62]

First - thoughts of suicide/being dead are a natural response to stress but is something to follow up on as it indicates that you are very stressed

- taking it further and actually attempting suicide is very serious and you really should contact your doctor or A&E.

Sorry but I'm not of your age - hope someone that is notices your post and responds

You could try ringing the Samaritans or Childline - their website looks very good childline.org.uk/Pages/Home... and seems to include the opportunity for on-line chats to a counsellor. Know that you probably don't think of yourself as a child and I'm not sure what age ranges they normally deal with but they might be able to suggest someone more suitable if they can't help because you are a little too old - though suspect you won't be.

Even strangers can care if someone dies.

don't know what your family circumstances are - and may be you don't have any family or friends around you but there are people out there who can and will help you get the help you need.

[MarieCares]

Hi there, this is the first time I have written on these types of pages but I saw your post and it touched me so much. Please don't think any more about trying to take you own life. A young member of my family tried to do that and almost suceeded the whole experience was horrible both for them and for the rest of their family. Thankfully they got to the hospital in time but it was awful.

I know every circumstance is different and you say that all the people you care about have left you but is there no-one in your family that you could talk to; someone you feel comfortable with. I know it will be hard but you are so young and you have your whole life in front of you and,although it doesn't seem like it now, there will be a time, hopefully in the not too diestant future, when you do feel better about things.

People do care, all the people who have responded to your post care what happens to you so please try to get the courage to talk to someone face to face about things and get some help. Can you talk to your doctor or is there a teacher a school or college that you get on well with or if you ring the Samaritans they will talk to you. A problem always feels a bit better when its shared. I undertstand that you feel alone but ending your life is not the answer. The answer is to make someone who can help you aware of the problem. Take care. X

[absxx]

thank you