My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me last july so it has been over a year since we have been apart. Ever since this has happened I have been up and down with my moods however recently it has been completely negative and it's got to the point where I feel as if I can't cope. I am normally a positive character around college but I have recently become rude and answering back alot. My grandad also passed away in november and I am struggling quite badly, even though my grandma is the biggest positive inspiration in my life I can tell she is still hurting alot. Since then, I feel like my life has been a downward spiral. When I have free time I tend to just spend it in bed sleeping as I am constantly feeling tired and run down. Sometimes when I drive my car thoughts rush through my head - like wanting to crash my car. Also whenever I drink alcohol I feel the need to drink far too much in a short space of time which leads to me being an emotional wreck. Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated, Im just sick and tired of feeling like this.