So one of my close friends (lets call her Rose) has helped me through a lot of problems including depression, anxiety, eating disorders and self harm. Rose is a beautiful girl with an amazing personality and before I knew it I started to fall for her and then close friends of mine and hers told me that she felt the same way.
I kept the feelings inside for a few months, even though I knew she liked me too, because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. Then she met this other girl (who I haven't met), who is, in my eyes, so much better then me, she deserved Rose more then I did because she was beautiful, kind, skinny and she made Rose happy... More then I did.
My self harm spiked again when they became closer and closer; I was consumed with jealousy and anger at an innocent girl I didn't know, and I felt horrible for it, making my depression become worse again. I then came to the conclusion that Rose liked this girl, as she made it quite obvious; I was devastated.
Recently, for some stupid reason, I told Rose I liked her a lot, she didn't really say anything about it except that she liked me too and that we'll talk about it.
Well, I spoke to her and... She does like this girl. And that she never liked me at all.
Obviously, I was heartbroken; she had led me on, telling everyone and me that she liked me and wanted a relationship and then stabbed me in the back.
Sorry for the novel but I love her and I don't know what to do.
Should I fight for her, to make her see she likes me more... Or let her go?
Thank you xxx