Hello

[Cookie84]

Stumbled and joined this page today. . . Don't know where to start. . . Feelin rather alone. . .

[Adorable1]

Welcome ..

I understand feeling alone, since having to give up my job in march due to anxiety and depression....it's a lonely place to be...even if you have family and friends it's lonely..no one understands how you feel...

This forum is very good some really nice people on here...keep blogging it helps....and the anonymity of it all means you can open up ...

Sue xxx

[Photogeek in reply to Adorable1]

HI Sue,

Welcome to this Forum, you are certainly in the best spot. People here are very

kind, warm and supportive, and its great to have an objective viewpoint. Its like having a good friend.

Its always good to start helping yourself, and for myself it makes me feel more empowered and less a passive "Depressive". We care for one another, so be open and take any help you get here.

Hannah x

[Cookie84]

Thank you sue.

I went back to work in feb but only lasted 2 months and couldn't cope due to back pain and stress it was all too much.

I have two young children and hubby.

Hubby keeps hoping I will "snap out of it" and asks "what he can do to help"

I seemed to be either screaming at everyone or a blubbering wreck. . . .

[Adorable1 in reply to Cookie84]

Yes the work thing I has been hard for me...

And yes some people around us think we can just snap out of it but we can't wish it were that easy. It must be difficult having young children coping with it all....

Have you been to Dr ? I would suggest you pull in all the help you can get....

It will be hard for hubby as he won't understand..I can only suggest you talk to him about it as much as you can...sounds like you need some help to get you there...dr would be first point of call..

I wish you well....it's a journey and we can all make it with the right help and being easy on ourselves

Sue xxxxxx

[Cookie84]

Yes sue went to dr on Friday when I finally admitted to myself enough was enough and I do need help. My children are 5 and 6 years and suffered depression about half way thro last pregnancy and so for last five and half year I've been up and down constantly. Been given happy pills so waitin for them to kick in.

I am just so relieved someone knows how I feel. . . Been feeling like I'm goin crazy. . .

[Adorable1]

Your not going crazy it will take time for the meds to kick in....everyone is very individual in this illness in how and what they suffer, but there are lots of similarities and people on the site have been very helpful to me....I was in denial about being ill for ages....I thought it was stress..I've worked all my life in stressful roles....

Well done for seeking help it's not always easy to do...but my advice is ALWAYS get whatever help you can..in whatever way suits you...

I have good and bad days and some of the bad days have been very very bad, I didn't go out much for about 3 months retreating to the bedroom , I think I was in shock and totally overwhelmed at what this illness can do....on good days now, I get what I need to do done...on a bad day it's too much trouble to even put the kettle on.....

You have done the right thing going to the dr....

I wish you well , let us know how you get on with the meds....sending you a hug ..

You can blog anything on here someone usually knows something about it...

Sue xxxx

[Adorable1]

Ps your blogs are always here ...so if in the future you wish to explain things to your husband...you can use the blogs ..show him them.....just a thought ..

Sue xx

[Cookie84 in reply to Adorable1]

I'm leavin my blog open on google chrome in a tab on my iPad so he is able to look and read if he come across. . . Not sure how to tell /explain things.

He knows I feel down and so has stopped telling me things just in case it upsets me. . . He is my rock and I would be lost without him. . . Maybe I rely on him too much??

[missrat]

Welcome to the forum. I hope your medication kicks in soon. Some of the medications are also used in pain relief. I'm on one of the older ones for both purposes. There are also other medications useful for back pain. You'll find we talk about that a lot on the Pain Concern community on Healthunlocked. Another great forum (US-based, but international, is chronicpainsite.com. I'm 'missrat' over there!

Has your GP referred you to a chronic pain unit? They have some useful techniques - injections or 'radio-frequency ablation' which can provide relief for many months. I don't respond well to painkillers but find the best thing is my TENS machine. They take a bit of experimentation to get the best out of them - if necessary a physio or pain clinic can help sort out the settings. The machines aren't too expensive, but I find the model that Boots stock now (I-Touch) is less reliable than their earlier one - TouchTens) which is on tenscare.co.uk - and there are other, smaller, models as well.

Good luck

Ann

[Cookie84 in reply to missrat]

I have had a referral to see either a chiropractor osteopath or physiotherapist. . .

I have no idea who to choose and to be honest meeting someone new feels me with dread at the mo. . . .

[alibabe]

Hi cookie,

I am also new to the site having finally admitting I am depressed, after struggling for about 5 years. I disclosed a long history of abuse as a child which am sure is the root of my problems. Happy to chat hun x

[Cookie84 in reply to alibabe]

Chatting would be good I think. X

[alibabe]

I am also just adapting to this and is not easy. I have now also resigned from my post as a midwife as I was totally unsupported. After 20 years I had to no choice. So from this weekend am moving in with my daughter and about to commence therapy which is very frightening. Would you get access to counselling support.

[Cookie84]

When I saw the doc last week and turned into a blubbering wreck in front of him he said loads of things, he was going to send me for blood tests (didn't give me ant forms) and was goin to refer me to above practitioners due to my lower bad pain (got the letter sat, not done anything about it yet) and also said about goin to a counseller however If I was to go to a counsellor I not sure how I would cope at the moment. . . . New places and people filled me with dread that I feel sick.. . . I speak to the people I know but feel I need to put on a 'face' for them. . . .

[Cookie84]

Well done alibabe you are taking good steps tho and with have your daughter for support?

Good luck on your therapy. Xx

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Hello!

I like that starting point, that you just want to connect with people. I'm Sue. I haven't read the blog in detail and if my understanding is completely wrong them ignore me, but it sounds as though you are struggling with some health issues and with anxiety that feels worse when you think about seeing a counsellor. You say you are not sure how you would cope with seeing a counsellor at the moment which suggests perhaps you imagine that feeling like a demand rather than a support and I wonder whether you have a sense that it can be something that is there for you to use or not use however you please, that it's a space for you to be able to talk about however you feel even if how you feel is anxious about what's expected of you there. Anxiety about new places and people suggests you are insecure but hide how you feel and that suggests that you learned that you have to cope alone. That must make life very hard for you, but we do all need help at times. As a child I learned to cope alone with traumatic feelings and it was very difficult for me to learn to turn to other people but now I thank God that I did and am the opposite in that I feel distressed when there is no one for me to turn to when I need help! It's still painful, but at least it is a pain that I can share. Relationships are the thing that make life meaningful and seeing the counsellor can be the first step towards feeling secure in the world.

Suexx

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If you are going crazy cookie then we all are! You are in good company. One thing we all understand here is depression and feeling alone with no one who understands. We do and we support each other. Thats why we are here. You are not alone - we are all standing with you by your side. Come in anytime to get help, let off steam or anything else that helps. Stay with us. We are a commuity who cares about each and every one of us. Thats the beauty of a good site like this with great people. Thinking of you love.

Bev xx