Hello everyone, my name is Beth and I am new to this site. I am reaching out for support as well and hopefully one day the opportunity to help others. I recently lost my husband to suicide and am left to care for three children. The guilt and depression consumes me and most days I want to shut down but I cannot. My children are very challenging at this time and I can't even take a moment alone to breathe. I have returned to work and feel so depressed and hopeless. I am hoping to meet others who have survived this daily hell that I am faced to deal with alone.