Maybe I'm trying too hard .....

Gave up work a couple of months ago due to anxiety and depression....I feel guilty about it and I'm trying so hard to get back to normal and hope back into the workplace...

I have arranged to do some voluntary work just 2 hrs one day a week...today is the day I go in, they have completed crb checks on me at a cost to them...I have to go, but I feel so awful, I think the thought of it has made me feel sick..I have a headache and just don't feel up to it...

I will go but I'm so tired and can't believe just 2 hrs of work could have this affect on me, it makes me realise how I'll I am...,

Just thinking about the hassle of parking is giving me a headache I'm so sick of all this

[poppyd]

Awwwww bless you- if you can actually get there- the 2 hours will fly by and afterwards you'll feel so good about yourself- sending you love and hugs xx

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Thank you I'm sure you are right and I'm hoping and praying you are ...I feel tearful. Think it's because it brings back the bad memories of work....

Thank you for responding means a lot xxx

[scoobydoo123]

can you walk there? it would save you driving xx

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No it's too far...may take car to station and get train in...everything feels like such a hassle when it never was before...I think makes me worse because it makes me realise I'm ill...

Thank you xxxx

[Jeffju]

I plucked up courage to do voluntary work several months ago and once I was over the nerves i had a great time. I got to meet some great people who really appreciated me and it gave me back a lot of the confidence that I had lost. \from this, i now have a part-time job in a school and love evry minute i am there. The school is great as are the teachers and kids. go along, taking some deep breaths on the way, and you will be fine. Good luck. xx

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Thank you,

Even the messages I'm getting are making me tearful today, just people being nice sets me off ....it's lovely really....I think I've tried to be a bit too strong....but I'm going to go..and your comment has helped me, thank you

Sue xx

[Photogeek in reply to Hidden]

HI Sue,

Hope your feeling a bit better by now. You will get over this, and I think that you are great to do Voluntary Work, don't put yourself under too much stress about working again. You will get there but take it day by day , step by step

Take care

Hannah

[Jeffju]

I think we all try to be too strong and need to be kind to ourselves. Most people would feel nervous going into a new situation and this is what we must try and remember, that it is quite ' normal' to feel nervous and not due to our mental health. You go in and show them what you can do.... I promise you that you will feel better after that two hours. And they will appreciate your voluntary work. YOU CAN DO THIS . xxxxx

[Aurora-auspice]

So feel for you. Xxxxxoooooxxxxx will be willing your support!

[Suzie40]

Don't think of it as work, think of it as starting a new hobby. If you don't like it, don't go again. But please go, because ill be looking forward to hearing all about it! X

[scoobydoo123]

hugs to you Sue xxx I tried being too strong for a while and realised i needed to be kinder to me & slow down x I feel a lot better than i did xxx

[Hidden]

Thank you so much for all your messages of encouragement I so appreciate it...

I did go...it was so hard,

I pushed myself so much...because I so want to get better.....I'm glad I went..I did a couple of tasks they gave me on the computer to be honest quite easy tasks but my concentration wasn't there, I did them, I've got such a bad headache now my head is banging I'm going to relax and take some pain killers .....

I must think for next week is it the type of voluntary work I want to do,,,the office situation brought all my concerns back very badly..maybe I should do something that is not office based..

Love sue xxxx

[scoobydoo123]

Glad to hear you made it there Sue xx Maybe you should write down what you would be comfortable doing and then get some voluntary work based on that??

Nikki

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Yes that's a good idea thank you Nikki

Sue xx

[Jeffju]

I did voluntary work at a new entrant class at a school.... the teachers are so pleased to get any help. And I also visited old people in the people's homes here and they are always pleased to see you. I live in a very small town so not much choice , maybe you would have more choice. Find something you would enjoy doing. It's so good to hear that you went. One step at a time. I know the voluntary work definately helped me. All the very best. XX

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Yes jeffju I still would like to do voluntary work but must choose differently I think...

Thank you

Sue xxxx

[Hidden]

Hi Sue

You are being so hard on yourself! Of course you will feel awful at the thought of going in and everything will feel so much harder than before - it's been a while since you went to work and also going will bring back all the stress of how it felt before you were off. Give yourself some really positive strokes and love! You don't have to be magically strong, just get through the one day and take each day as it comes, feel free to say it is hard and get a good night's sleep tonight - before doing that give yourself a pat on the back for being strong enough to face how you are feeling.

I hope the day goes well for you,

Suexx

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Rose

Thank you so much for the comments.....you are so lovely and so supportive....

I have read your replies to Sheffield and I have total respect for all you have said ....it is so lovely how we support each other on here....

Love to you

Sue xx