so long story short, my wife of 16 years ended my marriage as was having an affair. Told me she hadn't loved me for at least 4 years. I was on antidepressants prior to this and she once said she'd rather I had cancer as that's a real illness.
after the separation, I met someone new, turned my life around. On reflection she did me a huge favour. I can now reflect on those last years and note that my now ex wife, mentally abused me (even said she actively made me feel depressed as she wanted me to leave and wanted to blame it on my depression) you can't see the narcissist until you step back.
I am now very much in love and all my depression related issues, anxiety, ED, loneliness etc are all bit a distant but painful memory.
I share this as the saying 'as one door closes another opens' is totally true.
I am the happiest I've been for many many years and now feel loved....