I did it, i made the first step towards i hopeful future after waiting too long.

[PaladinNic]

I've had depression for a real long time, longer than i initially though, there is a whole black spot of missing memories in my head due to something called PTSD i apparently now have, but because of it i dont remember most of my teenage years. It turns out i was on anxiety and depression medication from about 12 to 16.

Anyway my mental health has been on a downward trajectory for over 5 years now and seeking advice many people advice me to go see my GP but TL;DR i didnt want to burden the NHS and other people with my problems so i shut myself today.

Well today i woke up at 8 (despite not sleeping til 4am) phoned the doctors and talked, went in to have a face to face, and i'm on more antidepressants. it's good cause i've actively taking steps to work on my health, for the better for once.

I hope i dont give up on this though, it might be my last chance

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Well done for taking charge of it and seeking help. You will always get support here. Look after yourself.

[richlandfarmboy]

HI, I too have to deal with PTSD. It has been a long road, but I'm in a good place now. Who diagnosed your PTSD? I've only know it to come from environmental causes. War, violence, abuse and some others. A trained psychiatrist is the one that should be managing your medical end of PTSD. And a psychologist should be managing the mental end of your PTSD.PTSD can be a long lonely road to go down to get well, but it well worth it in the end. I praise you that you have started that journey and wish all the best.