Alright guys, im toby. I dont usually talk bout my feelings so sorry if i stumble a bit. I used to play sports, outdoor recreational activities, hangin with mates, passionate bout cars, gadgets, trainers lol, always the strong one which people turned to in times of need, but in the last couple of years have only done a fraction of all of it. Losin mum to cancer nov'12 & me diagnosed nov'13 has left me a shadow of my former self. I miss the physical activity, the socialising and my work due to anxiety but mainly depression. This isnt a pity party as there r people who've had it 10 times worse than me. I just want the OLD me back but i cant get out of this rut. Thanx for taking the time to read this and hopefully get a bit of advice. Toby.