ALONE

[FarmLady1967]

I am afraid of people... I never feel like I fit in. I always feel awkward and out of place. I'm hard on myself... I don't like myself very much. I have a therapist but I don't feel like she really understands. I feel like no one understands. I'm living with my boyfriend now and it's very hard. I have to pretend to be okay, to be whoever he wants me to be. I always have to pretend. I'm not even sure who I really am. I'm only posting this in hopes that there might be someone else out there that might understand, who might know what this feels like. I feel lonely even when I'm not alone. I think my boyfriend and I are going to eventually break up because I can only pretend to have it all together for so long. I want to be alone, yet I don't want to be alone.

[Doubledog]

I think there are a lot of us who can relate with how you’re feeling. I’m sorry you feel this way. I recently started reading about self compassion from suggestions in other posts and I feel like it’s giving me a new perspective when lately nothing has been helping ie: meds, tms, therapy. I’ve stopped trying as hard to keep up with everything and trying to take time to be kinder to myself. I’m at the same age as you and never thought life would be such a struggle. Just wanted to reply and let you know you’re not alone. You’re worth everything.

[FarmLady1967 in reply to Doubledog]

Thank you for responding to my post. I'm sorry to hear you are struggling with this as well. I wish you the very best, and Thank you again for taking the time to answer my post.

[CatsandCheese]

I am 61 and feel like same. Because of mobility issues the situation is worse than ever. My alcoholic husband is a Jekyll and Hyde, As another responder wrote here, I am going to look into self compassion. Maybe learn to stop beating myself up.

[Amen9771]

I also feel alone and alien. I never fit anywhere and even when I try I still get met with negative attitudes towards me because I am so different and misunderstood. I feel safer alone but I want to have people at the same time. It's so frustrating to be so isolated and in my own mind all the time because I have no one to talk to. I wish you the best and I hope you find a way to connect with others. I just want you to know that you are not the only one that struggles with this type of issue.

[Purple_peace]

I just saw your post and I wanted to respond because I totally understand the whole thing I feel the same way and have been through therapy many years and been on medication for many years and still feel that way I have been doing a lot through self-help books and some cognitive therapy through an app. There are many out there now to help you try to figure out who you are and what you would actually like to be and where you would like to be in your life I am so sorry that you are struggling. There seems to be so many of us in the world struggling with this very same issue. I pray that we all can find our place and peace in this very harsh world. We are now living in,

Wishing you all the best , Purple peace🙏🏻💜

[Sunnyallday111]

I feel the same sort of. I feel out of place and fearful of people not liking me or having a problem with me. It affects me in that I'm afraid to have job and afraid to have friends. I'm a recluse.

[Mamabear49_]

Hi

I’m so sorry you are struggling- but you are not alone. Depression can make people feel like they are lonely even then there are a ton of people around. I am an empath- which means I pick up on others feelings, and emotions. I am a highly sensitive person- it has good and bad ramifications.

Maybe getting to the root of the issue would be helpful, I know it’s not easy and will take some hard internal work on your part, but plenty of people here to support you. Do you feel bad about yourself because of something that was said or done to you? It’s hard to overcome these things but I personally am a spiritual person - I can’t make it through life without it.

Church groups can offer support esp small ones

Get some sunshine, walk, do something that brings you joy each day

Set healthy boundaries with others

Guard your mental health as if it were gold

Trust me - each day I have to practice what I preach

Reach out anytime

You are not alone ☀️🌺☀️