Not coping well

[merryhorse]

Hello,

I am a 67 year old woman that was diagnosed with MDD at the age of 12. I have experienced trauma in childhood and extreme trauma in my adult life.

I have seen many therapists over the years and have been on medication. I live alone as my grown sons have moved out and have lives of their own. Recently, I am waking up in the mornings, not wanting to get out of bed, crying and feeling so scared. I do not want to leave my home.

[Starling777]

So sorry. I am struggling too, very much. Sending a prayer and a hug 💚💚

[merryhorse in reply to Starling777]

thank you. I’m sorry you are struggling as well. Shall we stay in touch and perhaps support each other?

[Starling777 in reply to merryhorse]

Yes, for sure, that'd be good. I try and try to smile, and I just can't. It's scary, this depression. I did put out some things in my wee garden patch today. I try and try to enjoy something, it's just not there right now. I try to be grateful for anything, funny shows, enjoyable food, this phone in which to communicate with others. Omgosh I PRAY. We both get out of this depression. 💛🩷💛

[eLMO1959]

I'm 65 and am going through the same thing. I'm so sorry you are as well.

[I_LOVE_TACOS]

Please know you are not alone. I am dealing with the same thing too. I have treatment resistant mdd and have struggled all my life to keep my head above the water. I just went through the worst depressive episode ever. I quit my job and stayed on the couch for a month. I only took a bath 3 times during that month and I didn’t have the energy to wash my hair. My husband told me I stink and demanded a divorce.

I’m on Cymbalta, Wellbutrin, Trintellix and Trazodone. My practitioner increased the Cymbalta to two times a day and doubled the dose of Trintellix. I feel some better but I don’t feel like I want to. I’m traveling to see a renowned psychiatrist on Friday. He does clinical trials on new medication. I hope he can help me. It was a big step for me to do research and call to make an appointment. I think you need to do the same. We can’t keep living like this. There has to be something to make us feel normal and function. We just have to find it.

I wish you the best. 🍀Please reach out anytime you need to. We are here for you.