I am at a point that when people ask I smile and say "I'm fine." to them. The truth is ugly and messy. I am pretty good at fighting off this illness that's dragging me down again. I am spending a lot of time in bed, I need a bath, ... I am setting small goals. Today I changed my bedding. I can't remember if I watered the plants or did I just think about it? I am running out of money and I might lose my job. It is hard looking for another job when I feel like this. I am taking my meds, and vitamins, eating super healthy when I can eat. Sleeping sporadically. My doctors think I might have long Covid, and maybe something wrong with my heart= more tests. oh my birthday is in a week and I don't care. I've really been struggling to breathe so I am sleepy all of the time. So, yeah "I am fine."
I am not fine.: I am at a point that... - Major Depressive ...
I am not fine.
I think you're way better then you feel an I'm really sorry you don't have anyone to tell you that more but I will. I'm half your age an wish I did those things. I turned to substance an really brought my house of cards down. An I'm trying to help other to get out of self because I got so bad after my daughter was taken I only don't harm myself for my kids sake even though she hates me. I could understand who wants a depressed drug addict Mom. I was home always an kept a clean home with food in the fridge an was there for advice. So needless to say she deserved more. Anywho I'm sorry to make this about me because I also do that an didn't even realize till it was to late apparently. Anyway my point is I think it's great you actually changed your sheets. Mine are in a pile with the dirty laundry because I just got enough money to do it but to anxious to walk outside an get the money off my card an actually put things in the washer...... What a way to live right? Maybe feel the soil on the plants to see if they need a watering, and relax an do nothing at all it's ok to need a mental break. It's ok. Not taking them can really jack things up. You are eating good an taking vitamins could the shower maybe wait till morning before work? Your a person an are allowed to just need a moment. Staying vigilant in every other area speaks volumes I think..... I hope my post helped a little if not I'm sorry your feeling down either way. I know the feeling.
My ex- asked me why I would always say "good" and smile when people asked how I was when I was usually depressed.I said it's easier than explaining everything going on.
Hope things start getting better for you.
Maybe you should get the shirt too. Yeah, I don't tell people how I really feel, I have a therapist for that. People just want to help and fix but what they don't understand is that it is a chemical imbalance. It is an illness that requires a doctor. so "I'm fine".
I got it after I posted it.