As a new member, this is my first blog, even though I was diagnosed at fifteen with SLE.
I was always told my form was rare, as it effects my brain more than I'd usually admit and my nervous system. Lately I've been having more frequent flares and my iron count was a seven the other day so I had to get a transfusion. A nurse told me if I carry on as I am, I will become critical! So I've been thinking a lot about death.
But reading all your posts about depression, and I suddenly feel like I can do this. I wanted to give up fighting, and just crawl into a dark hole and die under my own terms, finally taking control of my body.
So really, I just wanted to say "Thank You" to you all, and ask "Has anyone been told it may be soon to critical to survive?
My blessings to you all. x