i hate lupus most of the time but usually deal with it the best way i can be strong and never let it win... i am on various medication for lupus and currently having an iv drip with steroids ect on a 2 weekly basis for the next 3 months i was told when i first started treatment for lupus it would not be a good idea to get pregnant which was fine im 37 i have an amazing 8 year old (who never slept as a baby) so we had pretty much decided 1 was enough it was fine but now it seems everyone who is close to me is pregnant next door neighbour due aug sister in law due sep and my best friend in the world told me today she is due in oct dont get me wrong im pleased for them all but i cant help thinking its so unfair i would have given anything to have a girl but it was just not ment to be i feel feally selfish for thinking this way but cant get it out of my head i dont even know if i would have one if i could but the more pregnant people i see the more it hurts my husband is great but he really doesnt get how i feel am i being over sensative for wanting something i know i cant have or do i just want it because i know i cant have it ....