Hello everyone,
I wondered if anyone had any advice or similar experiences, or can just shed any light onto what now feels like a very big mess that has become my life!
10 years ago I was diagnosed with SLE. I'd been unwell for about a year with severe fatigue, up and down flu like symptoms, exhaustion, constant migraines, dizziness and nausea, terrible brain fog and just generally feeling shockingly unwell. I'd had glandular fever which seemed to set it all off and I couldnt seem to recover from it. Previously I had been perfectly fine with no health problems. (I was 21) For months and months the GP told me it was chronic fatigue syndrome and that there was basically no hope for me. Anyway, after going to a different GP and being referred to a rhuemotologist I was eventually diagnosed with lupus. It was a long time ago and i was young so my memory on test results isn't perfect but I think the ANA test was 1:600 or it could have been 1:800. I also had positive rsDNA but again I'm not sure what that was, or if its part of the same test.
I was put on 400mg of hydroxychlorquine and within about 3-4 months my symptoms had all but vanished.
Over the past 10 years they have had little ups and downs, I've felt the fatigue and migraine/dizzy/nausea come and go slightly, sometimes for a few weeks at a time but never for significant periods. After a few years I came down to 200mg a day of hydroxy. My ANA went back to being negative and stayed that way.
I had a flare up about 4 years ago where my ANA was about 1:80 so not particularly high but I did feel quite unwell. it settled down after a few weeks and went back to a negative result after about a month.
Its been up and down like this a few times at low levels over the past few years but never had massive significant amount of time in a 'flare.'
So back to the present! For the past 3 months now I have felt very very VERY unwell. For the first month it was like on and off flu like symptoms, I felt exhausted and so so unwell. My whole body feels a bit like its shaking all the time, like my legs are really weak and wobbly and I was finding myself having to lean against walls and things for support. I keep feeling very very light headed like I could pass out at any moment. I was also covered in hives/red hives like rash for about 3-4 weeks that I've never had before. I was beyond breathless, just getting up and down the stairs would leave me sat on the top step gasping to catch my breath. It seems to have improved slightly in the past month but I still get days where this is happening.
Some of the symptoms I felt when I was very poorly before lupus was diagnosed was this feeling like my arms and legs were lead weights, like I couldnt move them at all, even lifting my arms to open a door or pick up a fork was a huge effort. It could last for hours at a time, sometimes days. Ive felt it on and off over the years but the past few months its come back and is quite bad again.
I feel like it gets better for a few days and I can get out and about for a few days, manage to get a food shop done etc, but then i get poorly type feelings again and feel very shaky and unwell, and have absolutely zero energy levels. Ive been sick on a few occasions just for seemingly no reason. I fainted one morning too.
I've now had to quit my job and am incredibly upset and scared. I was put on steroids for a month which I have finished the course of now. They seemed to clear the rash which has gone, but not help any of the other symptoms.
Ive had ANA tests repeated but they were negative. My doctor says it could still be lupus but just not showing up in tests, but Im so confused as to why? And so worried it wont stop. Could it be that the hydroxychloroquine seemed to stop being affective for me?
I had my thyroid tested about 6 months ago and the GP said some antibodies were 'very high' but the function was still in normal range but that it would probably have problems in the future. I'm going to have the tests done again this evening to see if anything has changed.
My iron/heamoglobin levels also fluctuate between 9 -11 and never seem to get any higher. I'm getting them test as well today, but i doubt that will be the problem as they have always been low and I've always managed fine with that.
Vit D is also very low, but always has been.
My periods have also become utterly crazy with no rhythm or pattern and seem to just bleed randomly whenever they feel like it. They were always very very regular until about 8 months ago maybe. The doctors have said its probably due to the mini pill that I am on and nothing to worry about.
I'm just so terrified they're going to say its chronic fatigue syndrome again and write me off and I'm going to feel like this forever!! I really don't know what else to do! All I've done for about 3 weeks now is sit in the house and cry!!