Well, Good morning Lupus friends.
Everytime I feel good for a couple of days, I think I am cured. LOL!
Even got to believing I could work full time. I just cancelled an interview with great regret, because I woke up walking into walls, dizzy again. Ugh! Also, I can't seem to process what I hear too well, and speak words that arent real words. My husband and children make fun of this. Maybe that is what I need to do, start laughing more at myself.
I know I am not ill enough to get disability, nor will I ever try because I am too proud.
I again, tried to explain this disease to my husband, and he did not respond with anything but do you want to get an MRI for the dizziness. I just cant seem able to explain this disease to anyone ! My brother keeps telling me its my state of my mind...be positive...so do my in laws who dont acknowledge this illness at all.
Everyone has their own set of problems. " Sorry for your luck kid " is usually what I get from my brothers and sisters. Two of my sisters are in such denial that they just ignore whatever I share with them.
If it wasnt for this site, I would be so alone. Thank you for being there these 3 years.
I need to accept the fact that I may not be able to work. I struggle with this everyday because I have always worked so hard my entire life. It is difficult for me to get out of the house these days I am home. I guess I am depressed. I am worried what I will do when my girls are graduated and off to college.
Thank you for listening.