I just feel stressed all the while!
I know I have had a few things going on family wise which has upset me, plus losing my beloved Missy (rat), then Treacle, (bunny) which saddens me lots as I always get very attached to the pets
But I have just been to my friend's funeral today.......& it was very sad to lose him, he was 41, (1 week difference in age to me) had spina bifida, but always had a great sense of humour, we lived next door to each other growing up & he loved listening to my music when I played it loud! The crem' was so full of people, it just showed how of an impact he had on people, he was a true inspiration, his mum just looked.....'empty' :(....his Dad was obviously trying to be the strong one
Just spent the rest of the afternoon moving hutches/cages around, sweeping shed out etc in the pet section.......then it went dark!
I always go one way or another when fed up.....dont want to do anything except stay in bed...or wont stop cleaning!!
My 'boots up the bum' normally work.......I always tell myself there is always someone else always worse off than yourself...so I will fight 'the dark cloud away'.
Going to put xmas dec's up at the weekend...perhaps that will help?! not feeling very christmassy right now.....hopefully I will get to see both my Grandchildren this Xmas time as that will make a huge difference
Ok...less of the 'been slapped round the face with a wet fish' attitude!......& start being the 'one who has a shoulder for others' one!
I need to stop things getting to me so much, people always think I am a tough cookie ......I usually am....but I also break
Love & hugs to you all xx