I don’t feel ‘me’

[Teddydog123]

Hi, I’m new here and looking for advice.

I lost my Dad 4 years ago. It was sudden, unexpected and I found him dead on the kitchen floor. My Mum who has Alzheimer’s was with him but didn’t and still doesn’t understand he’s died, 2 days later we had to my mum into a care home and a week after Dads funeral we locked down so I wasn’t able to see mum for almost a year.

Over the past 4 years I thought I coped with grieving for Dad and mum too as they were such a huge part of my life and I adored them. I have an amazing husband, 2 grown up kids and a gorgeous 6 year old grandson.

I’m the ‘doer’ of the family - the glue if you like. Always busy doing and helping . I do think I’m a changed person. Nowhere near as sociable and confident as I was. But over the last few months I seem to be really struggling with….

constantly feel tired

No interest in anything

Apathy

No libido

Find myself lmwaking at night going over the details of ‘the day’ I found dad

Feel like life has lost its sparkle

Overeating and drinking

scared of dying suddenly like dad but still can’t seem to get a handle on getting fit and losing weight.

Scrolling my phone for hours

I take 150g Sertraline but wonder if it could be PTSD or would this have developed before now?

Thanks for listening x

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. I am so sorry for your loss. Have you had any therapy?