I am at wits end unable to find help

I have severe PTSD/Anxiety/paranoia along with some other health issues that cause me to be disabled. I do not have any family or know anyone to help me. I do not mean that in the sense of I have family or friends who just don't help, I literally do not have a family member or friend or know anyone. I have been in literal isolation for a few years with no contact with anyone outside of me making calls to try to find help. I have been through horrific terror and trauma and cannot function due to the constant overwhelming anxiety and paranoia I have as well as aging has caused every aspect of my health to continue to deteriorate to where I am helpless to help myself in so many ways but not in ways of needing hospitalized. Everywhere I turn to get help offers me help for things that have zero to do with my circumstances, such as I tell them I have literally no family and they give me a list of marriage and family counselors and just a lot of bizarre responses to what I explain my circumstances are and need help with. I feel I've tried every single thing I can find that might possibly be able to help or know of who could and all I get is more damaged and drained from the crazy responses and rejection.

[SavingGrace Administrator]

Hello ILikePlants . I just want to send you a welcome - as my phone is about to need recharging.Glad you’ve reached out here where there is much peer support as well as helpful topics to explore (some pinned you will find to the right column) . Wishing you strength and hope. Best wishes

SG

[SavingGrace Administrator]

Phone is charging now 😀 I love plants and Nature too.

Spent about ten years of my healing journey by working part to full time in gardens… and I’m really grateful for that time and opportunity to just reconnect once again through Nature.

It made the world of difference because I think plants are so very forgiving!!!

I ran a horticultural therapy project and also enjoyed gardening, now continue with an allotment only growing vegetables and flowers.

I don’t think there is anything quite comparable to the healing power of just working with our bare hands (oops: health and safety would advise use of gardening gloves though) and just being grounded by Nature.

Be it gardening, walking, taking a picnic in the outdoors or just walking barefoot at the beach if you can, these are incredible healing moments that certainly helped to shape and recreate my daily life.

Are you a gardener also ?

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I wish I could do these things. My circumstances prevent me from being able to do anything other than be inside my home, online, making brief calls to organizations trying to get help I cannot find or cleaning. That is literally all I have or can do without being able to have any help. I know it's very pathetic, but what I have come from has left me to this out of my control. I have some plants and wish I could do actual gardening and work with nature, but that's not possible for me in my circumstances. I appreciate your welcoming me and kind response.

[SavingGrace Administrator in reply to Hidden]

Having even houseplants is good 😊 xxx I’m sorry to hear how tough things are for you. I’m glad you found this forum for support ☺️

[Tara52]

I am so sorry for the pain and frustration you are experiencing. I went through similar experiences after my partner of 14 years committed suicide. I already suffered with depression and anxiety but then ended up with PTSD and a heart attack called "Broken Heart Syndrome ". I didn't have much of a support system. My 2 sons live very far from me. I had to search for help by myself like you are now. Ir was quite pathetic. Every place I called resulted in futility! I finally found counseling on YouTube. Everything from PTSD counseling to Spiritual counseling. I had to learn to pray, meditate and seek God's face. It has been a long hard journey but it has been worth the effort. I don't know if any of this will help you. I will pray for your strength and recovery. There is hope!🙏Hugs!💗