Hi everyone. I am in the process of moving away from avoiding my feelings through sleep, being online and dissociating. I have gotten into a habit in the past months of sleeping a lot. My bed is one place where I feel safe. When I get back in bed after my kids leave for school, my anxiety fades immediately so there is an immediate reward. But of course it is a viscous cycle. Too much sleep makes me slow and clouds my mind. That feeling if numbness also has an appeal but then it backfires and I begin to feel lazy and guilty and my energy gets lower and lower and I get more depressed bc my life consists of nothing more than sleeping. I am not accomplishing anything else.
So... I am trying really hard to break this habit and I am having one anxiety attack after the other. I am actively working on getting myself thrtough these attacks with distractions, breathing, mind exercises, etc. And then trying this Tapping accupressure points as part of Schema Therapy. Today was a major challenge. I keep feeling like I will lose touch with reality.
BUT, I did it! I made it. I was really strong today. I faced my anxiety and depression head on and now I am actively giving myself credit for it!
We are some very strong people! 💚💚💚
Trauma/sleep deprivation/help falling asleep
Huge derealization experience today
TRIGGER suicide feeling like something terrible may happen any second ... Need a happier mind 
