Major Trigger today

[gracious21]

Major issue today with someone I didn't even know. Voiced my discontent with her dog and she yelled at me as I was walking with my daughter. Got small and disassociated, crying and numb for several hours. I felt powerless all over again and it hurt so bad taking me right back there as if it just happened even though my trauma was in childhood thirty some odd years ago. I have to work tonight but it is really difficult right now. Dove into chocolate and now trying to meditate..still really affected. People can be so cruel..thought I have been making progress but every once in a while, something like this will happen.just wanted to put it out there.

[SavingGrace Administrator]

I'm so sorry gracious21 that this is affecting you right now and that you head to work with such feelings.

I find right now that people can be so defensive in their reactions - such as the person whom you spoke to about their dog.

It sometimes happens, that people just react from their own place of anger and not from a place of being constructive nor adulthood.

Just remember, that you did a civil and responsible thing [I don't know the details, but so many of us have been in that position, where we've felt we needed to speak to someone about their pet in public]. You did the right thing. The only bad thing here was the person's response.

Yet it has triggered you, which is natural. It's hard not to take things personally in any good scenario. Harder yet, when it triggers somewhere or something inside that is vulnerable.

You are doing the right thing - self-care - and I hope that your meditation eases you, before heading to work.

Think peace and good thoughts - you are a good, responsible person. Sending big hugs and blessings.

[evilspicy]

I'm so sorry you experienced this. I know how incidents like these can hang over you for days, weeks sometimes. It can feel like all the progress you made goes up in smoke in those moments. Just wanted to say that you are not alone. How you managed to work after an episode is beyond me, so kudos to you for that strength. I hope you are starting to feel better now. I'm always around here now that I found this forum, so feel free to message me. Sending positive vibes your way.