My Intro

[Blueyez1993]

Hi, everyone. I’m a mom in my 40’s & I have PTSD & anxiety from childhood trauma. I came here because something happened recently & I am so tired of not being able to cope when something triggers me. I also feel like a burden to my family, so I choose not to talk about any of it with them. I do not socialize. People exhaust me. I stay at home all day, everyday. I can not work due to other medical conditions I have. As much as I feel my life is good, I can not enjoy it because of the PTSD & anxiety. I do not want to keep time traveling to the past, either. Just want it to stop.

Thanks for reading

[Shy_Guy]

Welcome to the community. You are among friends here. I suffer from similar things that you shared. I have found a lot of different techniques to deal with the triggers. I am sure you will find something here that will help.

There are people from all over the world here. You have to be a little patient with your posts because some people are sleeping when you post in the other side of the world.

Take care

[Blueyez1993 in reply to Shy_Guy]

Thank you. I am glad to have found this community. It’s comforting to know I am not alone, yet I wish none of us had to endure the traumas that have brought us here.

Thank you for the advice, I will be patient & spend sometime reading posts, etc.

[Shy_Guy in reply to Blueyez1993]

I have found that there are times that the PTSD symptoms go dormant for a period of time and then sometimes starts the symptoms again.

I had a long time that I did pretty well. My trauma stims from childhood. Then I had my divorce and I went down hill fairly fast. I had to learn new ways to cope. Mine is photography and you might see my photos here on the forum. The photography helps me to focus and ground myself in the present.

This certainly does not mean you will need this but there are many other ways to keep from living in the triggered states. The triggers still happen but they can be short and just pass quickly.

It might take some time to identify a trigger and then some time to figure out a good way to minimize it.

I trigger easily in crowds so when I go into a crowd, I go with a good friend and I plan to spend short bursts of time in the crowd. This is just an example but I think you get the idea.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Hi Blueyez1993,

Welcome to the community.

I have been through childhood trauma myself and know how it can cast a shadow over our lives. I really feel for you and the struggle you go through.

Being isolated is really the worst as it is really tough to talk about things especially when others don't understand.

My PTSD got triggered when something else happened in my life and I had to start trauma therapy. It took me a while to find a helpful therapist but it made a huge difference in my life.

What kept me going was the hope that healing is possible and that some day I will be able to function again.

I just want to bring this hope to you...

[Ellen6 Major Contributor]

Welcome

There’s quite a few of us here who have PTSD from childhood trauma. You are not alone. If only the people who caused the abuse knew how badly it still affects us many years on.

I’m sorry to hear you find it hard to go out. That must be so difficult.

With the right therapy things can improve. I’ve found emdr really helpful

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