I lost my sister to cancer Oct 2014 then Nov 2014 my mom killed herself. in Sept 2014 I was in a horrible car accident and was pregnant. baby is fine now but I had to deal with all the pain from my accident and losing my mom and sister... now I hurt body mind and soul. my husband doesn't get it. ive self medicated and id rather feel Numb then feel all my pain. now theres a chance hes going to kick me out and I wont be able to see my kids... that just makes shit worse.... I just want to feel whole and with none of this pain... ive thought about killing myself to end it all but cant because of my kids... I'm so lost.