The more mental illnesses I add to my "brain affliction list" the more I get confused which symptoms are coming from where. I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety, PTSD and now ADHD! I also get the added bonus of having gender dysphoria from being trans and also having to face discrimination almost every day. So yeah I'm always thinking! It feels good to shut off my thoughts, but I can't often do it for long b/c of feeling uncomfortable. However it does get more comforable every time! I am trying to re-wire my brain by consciously shifting my focus to newer and more empowering things but some days are hard and it takes time and I'm still drinking and smoking and eating food I shouldn't. It does help to write it out though and hope someone is listening.
So anyway, with the ADHD, it think it may be another huge step for me to find a way to deal with those symptoms! I'm not really into pharma but may try it as a last resort. I take St. John's Wort and it works and I was comfortable with that b/c you don't need a prescription but it works just like an SSRI would, and even better according to some studies I can't remember now lol.
I have also had head trauma in the past from falling when I was drunk or passing out from heat exhaustion. Ug I just feel so fucked up and I'm having a moment of slight panic and I just want it to go away. Listened to binaural beats for a while and that helped but maybe I need more water or somethin.
uuugggggggggggg. Please share help ADHD related things please and thank you.