I am close only to my fiance, Angel. But when I start a PTSD a episode he forgets I have a disorder and really gets on me for being Negative. I say "that is me, that's the way I am" and it escalates. Question to all of you great people: I don't want to turn into a Polyanna, but what are some ways to rid the negative and learn to be happy? That word kills me . Happy. How can I do it???