I have just spent the best part of the weekend in bed, everything hurts especially my sides and ribs, they feel like they are on fire with the odd firework going off. I can't get any respite. Went to see the GP again last week because I felt so ill. Pain , digestion problems lack of sleep because I can't get comfortable..... One day I thought I must be dying and then I thought I don't care.
The GP is going to take me off all of my meds over the next 6 weeks because they don't seem to be doing any good and so he can reevaluate with a blank canvas.
The pain clinic has discharged me as they say there is nothing more they can do. I also have spinal problems and have had nerve blocks ( made no difference) lumber facet injections ( made no difference) tried loads of painkillers either made me feel worse or made no difference. I have tried to get onto the pain management programm at the hospital but they don't think I could manage to attend and it is one day a week for 8 weeks. The waiting list is sept at the earliest.
I have tried to find a local support group for fibro / cfs / chronic pain and the nearest is nearly an hour away. And I can't manage that drive.
I feel so cut off from everything, friends have melted away, family are all stressed due to moving, partner a lovely guy but ever the glass half empty kind about to be made redundant. I haven't been able to work for 3 years now, I have also lost four family members and a close friend in the last three years. I don't know if tnhis has triggered so much of the pain.
I can't cry I just feel numb.