Restoring my self belief

I think I've had a bit of epiphany(spelling?) overnight thanks to my 16 year old daughter. I went to see her teachers yesterday(she is doing a levels). She is doing very well and I was incredibly proud of her. It was a big achievement for me to go as I was feeling awful in myself and I kept thinking that she is coping with all this and I can't cope with one day a week at college. However at 3 this morning she came into my bedroom having a panic attack that she couldn't cope,bless her. I got her to calm down and this morning I realised she is suffering from lack of self belief then I realised that's exactly what has happened to me. Over the years my self belief has got less and less especially since having fibromyalgia.

So I am going to try to build my self belief back up again. I know it's not going to happen overnight but if I can make it my goal to work towards I think that can only be a good thing. I'm going to use what happened with my course tutor as a way of learning how to cope again. If I can learn to cope with someone so challenging instead of running away like I usually do then I can become stronger.

I've already changed my therapy session so I don't have it the day before I have college(just too many emotions one on top of the other).

I going to use this blog to help me keep my eyes on my goal. It's going to be a journey but I'm sure it will be worth it. Thank you to everyone who is supporting me.

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  • Well done. You sound so much more positive. Looking forward to the next instalment.

    Kaz

    Xx

  • Oh TM how lovely to read and well done for being so supportive to your daughter! You should be very proud of yourself for realising how you feel and being so positive about tackling it!

    We will be with you every step of the way and will help and support you as best we can. Make sure you tell us about each step, how you are managing and how you are feeling too. I am sure many of our members will appreciate hearing about your journey so it could help others too!

    Onward and upward, step one of the journey! Here's a hug TM for you (((hug))) xxx

    Libs

  • WELL DONE I will look forward to reading your blog take care love beth x

  • Good for you, keep it going and you'll be fine

    Love Lynne x

  • I am so pleased to hear that you are feeling a lot more positive about things. I too look forward to hearing how things are going. Take small steps to start with so you are not overwhelmed.

    You are already a big achiever, you have brought up a bright, clever daughter, who is doing A levels. Plus you persevered last night to calm her down and re-instil her own belief.

    Well done and good luck with your other goals.

    Jo

  • I know you have been having a really rough time of things for a while and I'm pleased to hear you have set yourself a goal,I think having a goal keeps you more focused,I look forward to reading your blogs,whether its the ups or downs you know we are all here to support you every step of the way,you've got something to work too now and I think you will do well,you take care TM and remember we are always here to listen so well done you...Julie xx

  • It's wonderful how our children open our eyes to our own shortcomings and then enable us to find a new approach to tackle them. Stay positive and keep going.

  • We are wiht you all the way. Sometimes one little thing is all it takes to make us pick ourselves up and dust ourselves down, take the bull by the horns and just do our level best xxxxxx

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