I've not been on here much lately 'cos this damned flare just keeps on coming!
Because I've been so depressed, I know that my decisions haven't been the best.
Earlier this week I finally got my husband to agree a setlement over our belongings. He offered me a small sum of money & in return I signed away any rights over anything left in the house & garden. Although I'm relieved that it has been done, I'm worried because I did it without checking the legality of it all, I'm also bothered in case there is a way he'll be able to use it to lessen my rights, although I was very careful to state that the signed paper did not cover the house & land & that we had agreed to a 50/50 split.
Yesterday was also my divorce nisi & to celebrate I decided to look at different flats, as a mark of moving forward. That was all fine but because my head is still so porridge-like, I couldn't cope with more questions going on in there, so to rid myself of one worry, I traipsed all the way to Wells on the bus ( 1 hr 10 mins each way)& filled out the rental application.
I know that I need to move because I cannot cope with the terrain around Frome, it's hills & steps wherever you go. My family wanted me to move to Exeter, I'd been looking online for a flat there, it was all but decided, then I splash out all the money on a lease that I'm not sure about. But I'm so worn down, I just want everything to be calm!
Anyway I finally dragged myself back here & boy it was an effort. I receved a letter giving me an appointment for a CTscan on my head - I hadn't even been told I was having one!
I really don't know what's going on in my life at the moment, it feels like a very surreall film.
Oh & I splashed out £30 on a glass case for my crystals, which was really haevy & I really don't need another one! I certainly couldn't afford it either!
Oh & my debit card got refused yesterday because my PIN is locked. I must have entered the number wrong 3 times, but I can't get my fingers to go where I want. I need to get it unlocked but that means going to town alone & entering my number correctly twice!
Hmm I think I'll leave it for a few days.
Thanks for listening to my woes - again
a wooly headed, achey eyed Cobweb xx