Hi everyone I want to thank you for the kind words yesterday, The upset has left me in a terrible flare, i have been up much of the night literally crying with pain.
Out of curiosity I reseached this morning how much my medication and regular tests I have would set me back if I had agreed to move to New Zealand, I knew it would be expensive which is why I always maintained it was not an option, but wowzers I never for a moment thought it would be so much.
Medication Per Annum $7408, as an ex pat, mainly because the Cymbalta is not subsidized over there. The Blood Screening I have to have for my cholesterol and the high risk of cancer due to the type my mother died of is $124 each time and the MRI scans I have to check the state of the disks in my spine, and the fact that I have shown and continue to show signs of MS at $2000 for brain and spinal scans.
Considering I am unable to work, and that I have PCOS and I made it clear from the time we went from friends to partners that children were very much part of what I wanted, and would need medical intervention for this which I have not researched, where would this money come from? I wouldn't be eligable for the benefits I receive here.
~~This has been very cathartic for me and when he has stopped being a baby and we finally talk I have these figures to hand.
Emotionally I feel much better about the whole the sorry situation, just angry.
In the immortal words of the fabulous Dusty Springfield "I'm all cried out"