Well I`m at the end of my teather! Very upset, as someone who i would have caled my friend has told me that sometimes I`m ok but he said when its the `Annie is full of pain show` nobody likes or wants to be near me! When I am in real bad pain or its just there I never ever tell anyone, my real friends only have to look at my face to see things are bad, ie dark under my eyes, pale/grey. He has said if I start to do normal things then people will accept me!! I feel like I`m going mad and a fake and my life is one complete lie! I real dont want to live anymore, I have to wonderful Sons that I love dearly, but cant live with people talking and remarking of how my life should be and how I should live it. I never asked for this condition and would love my life as it used to be.