What the chuff

Arrrggghhh, What the chuff,

I have been trying to go to the hairdressers for some time now,

I really need a trim and colour, What with the silvers poking through a badger in the making,

Backwards and forwards,

Hubby got me in for this morning at 9, She said she would open early for me,

Last night I was going through what I had to do for the appointment, Cushion those chairs are not comfy, Half a sandwhich I don't eat breakfast so going from 8 at night all the way though with nothing will fester into major headache, My knitting (I have a important project to finish) Glasses, so I can see what I'm doing,

Well I'd thought about it too much and ended up having a panic attack and being sick,

Hubby cancelled as soon as she opened, ☹️☹️ Am I going to go and do my hair?

I feel 💩💩 I have let her down as well as myself, I thought I was doing ok for a bit,??

obviously not🥺

[Stairwaytoheavan]

Sorry to hear that

[Blue-52]

have you thought about a mobile hairdresser, lot cheaper, as no overhead, and so much more comfortable, mine is coming tomorrow, for a spruce up, she understands all my needs, I have a mobile sink, for half head highlights, to rinse out, same as a hairdresser sink, she even sweeps the floor, if hubby not here, for cut. Would highly recommend it.

[Hidden in reply to Blue-52]

Thank you Blue-52,

We did try that but I can't (won't) have anyone in my house at the moment'

I'm so per/thet/ic (soz) I hide from my neighbours, if someone knocks the door I hide, I should join in with my dogs and shout SOD OFF in bark language and then retreat to my bedroom,

🐶🐕🐕🐕

[Blue-52 in reply to Hidden]

Ahh bless you.

I hope you feel better soon.

[EarthSitter1]

Sorry you’re having a time of it 💙

[Ladame]

Hi, so sorry to hear that, it gives you a boost to get your hair done. Why not get a mobile hairdresser to come to you? Perhaps have a trim first so it's not as tiring, taking less time? Grey is fashionable at the moment - you may decide you like the change? If not, have it coloured another time when you're not worrying about getting your knitting finished, it takes away some of the stress. The hairdresser I use does mobile as well as working in a salon, would your existing hairdresser come to you? Hope you get sorted. Don't stress! Says she 🫣😁😂

[Yassytina FMA UK Volunteer]

Sorry too read this but at least you tried and we never know how we are gonna feel do we, it can be day too day if we are going too tick a box, I do have a lady come in too me ,so handy , take care xx

[Bacaloca]

I know exactly how you feel, I have my hair cut once, sometimes twice a year. This is because I cannot stand my head being touched. I hate going out to busy places and definitely cannot go out alone. Like you, I don't like anyone coming into my home. So mobile hairdressers are out of the question. I usually go from having hair that is below my shoulders, to having hair that is short back and sides. I swear to God, I will shave my head and solve the problem soon.

I am sorry, a bit of a vent escaped then🫣

I hope you manage to get a haircut soon.

Gentle hugs 💜

[Hidden]

Thank you Bacaloca,

It's a ruddy new/sance (soz), I have diazepam,can take up tp 6mg a day so I usually use them to attend appointments, For whatever reason I failed again 😩🙄😫😫

[Gooddaysagain in reply to Hidden]

You aren't failing, you're learning. Our pain is trying to tell us to stop (doing, trying to be) too much.

I haven't managed to go beyond my gate in a year. I haven't been to a hairdresser in over 2 years. I looked (sorry, glanced... ) in the mirror this morning and pinned up my hair - yet again - without the shower I'd promised myself.

"I'll have a shower and wash my hair after the ASDA delivery's been". Ho hum. (I'll let you know if I get around to that).

No one's worried about how I look. The few friends who understand only worry about how I feel. They text me to see if I'm OK and if I need them to come round; i.e. they give me notice.

I have a note attached to my side door "This door is unlocked, please leave parcel on floor inside". When I'm well enough, I wave to the postman, or the man from Amazon. They wave back and that's enough.

Luckily, I live in a place where it's safe to do that. You have a partner, so you're even safer.

I hope you learn to be gentler on yourself. If only for that one thing, say 'thank you' to you body and ask it if it could find another way of teaching you.....

I send you a warm, gentle, loving hug,

Dee

[Hidden in reply to Gooddaysagain]

Thank you for your reply Gooddaysagain,

I would like to think I'm ok and I am always com/pase/ment/os (soz) and know what my situation makes it hard and sometimes very sad,💩💩

My main big problem is, I'm not me anymore, I still haven't grieved for my former self,

I will one day, But not today,🤕

People delivering also know where to put my parcels, My Hubby is a wonderful man and does as much as he can, He also has a few medical issues and is of an age where he should be taking care for himself and not me 👨‍⚕️

We do what we can,

Take care

Debs

[Gooddaysagain in reply to Hidden]

Like you, I 'lost' me. That was 14 years ago, and I've grown old without ever having the good times I 'should' have had in my 50's and early 60's. I haven't grieved either but, rather than face the 'strange' me in the context of who I was before, I ran away to Ireland. I'm now undertaking the monumental task of moving back to my 'home' area in Wales. I think I'm also ready to grieve now, having wasted so many years.

I wish you well in your recovery of your 'self' and hope you enjoy meeting her.

Namaste,

Dee

[Hidden in reply to Gooddaysagain]

You will have so much beauty and fresh air around you I'm sure your health will improve, Wellies and warm waterproof coat, How wonderful, In have family in Pem/brocke/shire(soz) Haven't seen them since 2012, But I do remember they are spitting distance from a beach,

[Hidden]

Thank you

[honeybug]

oh sweetie…sooooo very sorry lovely 🤗♥️🥰🙏🕊🌿🌸🦋