Hello All, Last week I had an appointment with a psychological therapist for help with my depression, I'm not sure if I am being overly sensitive but I came from there feeling so much worse, have cried for days and have had some awful dark thoughts wondering why I am struggling to fighting for some kind of improvement in life. I explained my situation, crying all the time, no motivation, falling asleep for 10 minutes at night and then woken by nightmares and then awake for hours and feeling exhausted next day and the anxiety I have about my loved ones.
My mobility is rubbish and has been for last 4 years since I had hip replacement that went wrong and have been left with nerve damage in opposite leg that also needs replacing (not that I'll be going anywhere near an operating theatre again) I was diagnosed with fibro in May this year, a relief because I was thinking I was going insane with pain everywhere!!!
Anyway back to my therapist, she just kept asking me, 'what do you want me to do?' and 'how am I supposed to help?' eventually, in floods of tears I asked what she had available to help me, she offered me cognitive behaviour therapy course for 8wks that I do online at home, that she would be my 'whipping boy' (her words) for 6sessions or to purchase a book off amazon called 'mindfulness for health' I choose the book but found her attitude to my problems strange, she told me ' how do you expect to sleep at night if your not active? I did tell her I do gentle exercises She obviously didn't understand the pain of nerve damage, an arthritic hip and inflamed coccyx as well as usual fibro pain. I cant take antidepressants as they give me migraines but she suggested going to my gp to increase my citalopram.
I don't feel like I will ever go back or ask for help again, she made me feel like I was an absolute nuisance to her day.