What ever happened?

Why can't I get my fat arse out of my room and bed?

I wrote some lists out for what we need to do around the house and remind us what to do on a daily and weekly basis once the deep clean is done,

Every time I plan anything I just get waylaid and all that gets done is, tv oh yeah and crap snacking!!!!! I had the gastric band 12yrs ago and things went a bit pear shaped, I had the liquid drained, but the actual band is still there,

My meals are small or liquidised,When my dentures are fixed and placed in I will get some relief by being able to chew properly and how I miss a good salad!

After thinking about getting my lips plumped (Not like the celebs) He asked If I had read about the weight loss jab,

Anyway cut a really long story not so long story, ( Sorry I write A LOT) For a fee of 250 a month I receive 4 loaded jab pens, I have lost 10kg yeah go me!

The jabs are apparently very hard to get hold of at the mo, Now I have been without the jab for over a month now and my snacking has got quite disgusting, I don't know when the next lot will be available,As I'm not having to pay out I'm trying to get to a supermarket for the healthy ingredients to batch cook so many on line and Iv'e lost count of the amount of recipe books but I keep failing,

John said he'd go with a list, Bless his cotton socks,when he can't get a certain ingredient he'll get something he thinks will be better, So I really need some haddock to make a chowder I get pork loin. Lol On line is not great when they do the same'

I think I'll either pop my clogs with obesity or depression and anxiety, I wish I could manage my life a bit better, 1 day not really bothered with anything in particular and the next, crying or just being on a major downer, I hate myself maybe a bit too much, I can give advice but a bummer for taking it oh well I hope I am on the upside tomorrow,

Blimey If you got this far I am grateful to you for getting this far and I'm trying some different sleepy time pills, so I'll probably be back on here about 3 or 4 o'clock🕓 x

[honeybug]

Oh lovely Dd72 😊

Sending you very empathetic love and hugs. Can soooo relate. Sorry about the jab shortage you’re having. Hopefully it will become available soon.

Hugs kisses and positive thoughts sent to you.

Love and prayers

EJ 🤗♥️🥰🙏🕊🌿🌸🦋

[PAULINE15 in reply to honeybug]

There’s humour in your post that made me smile a little but also it sounds very familiar always got lists and plans but they always have tomorrow’s date on them , don’t beat yourself up too much keep writing your lists and add some humour to your day. Xx

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Hi PAULINE15, Iv'e been told I've a irony humour, (I can't think why🤔 brain fog)

If I make someone smile, then that's a great pressie of the mind Thank you, I try to keep a smile from emergency purposes, It's hard work just lately,😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

Take care

Debs x

[Tiamaria2367]

Right. To start with your not on your own, there are lots of people just like you. I can't pretend to know how your feeling about the gastric band because I haven't had one but I am overweight, obese one doctor said,great,thanks for telling me something I can't do much about, but most doctors at the hospitals say when they don't even know why apart from the fact that I'm in a wheelchair but if he'd gone into more detail of my back ground then he would have known I'm really battling with this weight problem and like you I'm struggling with everything. I have depression and have been trying to cope with it for 30 years. I have short term memory loss, fibromyalgia, scoliosis, osteoarthritis and osteonecrosis. Also 2 years ago they found out that the thyroid in my neck doesn't work so I'm on tablets for that, and medication can also put weight on so it's not all to do with what you put in your mouth. I'm not going to say anything about the injections because I've never heard of them so can't comment on them, but there are groups out there you could try and get involved in like a knit and natter group, you can be any age for that. I have been part of one and even though I don't go at the moment I know I can ring someone to have a chat with whenever so perhaps a hobby. If you want I don't mind a natter if you would like anytime we certainly have things in common. I'm female 56 y.

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Tiamaria2367,

Thank you for your post very nice suggestions but .... I have a couple of things that sort of really make it hard, I also have the menapause thing !!I thought I'd leave that for a few more years! lol

Knit and natter in theory sounds good,( my chronic social anxiety says different)

Bless you for the offer of natter that sounds good too (my inability to talk.especially the phone makes me feel sick) and the last time I tried to be social at the park with Hubs and the dogs?? I really did try, But the thought of other people being around just terrified me!!

Not fair on the dogs to think they are going for a walk and then don't so I put a blanket over me ( I can't see people and more importantly, I can't see them) So you see why my posts are a bit long at times, I can't always write back straight away ( Brainfog makes it daunting and so tired because I,m trying to concentrate so hard, )

Mad as a box of frogs I hope you are feeling well today and have sunshine in your area,

I have to close the curtains or wear sun glasses because I have sensory issues, Tinitus is chronic, Although I must get a break to sleep, AND, well now I'm knackered 😴

[Smilesalot]

Hi Debsdelight72 I hope you slept ok sweetie🤗I'm desperately worried about you😢.

Please contact me if you want, anytime!!!

Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗

[Elaine200756]

Hi Debsdelight, if you suffer from depression as well as fibromyalgia that will have a big impact on your eating and being bed unable to get out of bed.

I don't know if you are taking antidepressants. But I am. I have multiple chronic illnesses and I too am overweight. My doctor told me that all antidepressants cause weight gain. Then she said, "but so does pain, because you're not going to want to move if you're in pain"!

When I am depressed, never mind in pain, I don't have the will or the motivation to move and I will overeat on really sugary, starchy, fattening snack foods. I have had therapy as well as pills and I try but every now and then I crash and fall back on these behaviours.

It's just a thought. If you don't have enough medical input for the depression and anxiety then maybe speak to your doctor? If your struggle is due to depression please understand that you are ill, not guilty. Antidepressants and counselling can make a big difference.

I had one period when I couldn't get out of bed for 5 months. I used to get up as my husband got home from work but I would sleep on the sofa until bedtime.

Ylou are not alone and you are not the only one who struggles with food and trying to cope with cleaning etc. You are worth so much more than a slender body and a perfect house. With what you are going through with your landlord you have been subjected to unjust and overwhelming pressure.

I know how hard you try, believe me. Sending you lots of love, Elaine xx 🤗💖